Indecisive

Chapter 6

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Zen POV

I saw everything. The way he looked at her. He's really in love with her. Luckily Harley just took it as he's mental. Sometimes she is smart, sometimes she is just too absent-minded. I can't lose her to a crazy psycho. He was kind of quick to realise I like Harley. I was hoping she heard that part more clearly, to know how I feel for her.

I've fallen for her since the first time I saw her. I didn't know how to approach her. Everyone wants her. I was a skinny nerd without glasses, I didn't know how to be popular enough to gain her attention.

It took about two months to understand her from a distance. Being in the same class helps a lot. She has a lot of suitors, my fingers and toes are not enough to count. She's rich but does not brag about it. She likes dark things, gothic style, no pinks for her, no girlie things either. She's straightforward, cheerful, pretty and... There are just too many things about her.

Because of her, I started toning my body. No one likes a skinny monkey. I started being particular about my food, scheduling my time for exercise and continued being a nerd. I wanted to be strong and smart for her.

I hung out with the noisier group of guys. Being with the noisiest group will just annoy her. I realised, just within a few days, she started noticing us. Not me yet, but us. I was studying how the guys' joke, once in a while cracking some. I became the funniest guy in class and quite a popular one in school. And one day, finally, she talked to me.

=Flashback=

"Hi, Zen! I need your help in Chemistry. Can you help me? Congrats on being first in school for Chemistry."

Oh, my god, she's talking to me! Calm down Zen. Be cool. Don't let your effort go to waste. Breathe in slowly, then breathe out.

"Hey, Harley. Thanks. I'll help you. What do you need help in?"

Am I too cold to her? My lips are trembling. I hope I'm not obvious. But I think it is too obvious. I need to do something. Calm down... What should I do!! Take a drink? Yes! Take a drink!

I reached for my bottle and drank slowly as she went on asking questions about chemical equations and moles calculation.

Her hair looks so smooth up-close. Her reddish brown eyes are just so captivating. Her voice deep yet soothing. Her lips so kissable. There aren't any traces of makeup on her and she looks so amazing... I think I've fallen too deep in love with her.

"Zen? Are you listening? Hello?" She was waving her hand in front of my face.

"Oh yes, I am. Sorry. You want me to teach you now? Or after school?"

She considered for a while. "After school, in the library, that would be great. Are you okay with that? Sorry to bother you."

I didn't know she is into studying. I waved a hand at her. "It's okay. I agreed to help you in the first place. The library it is." I smiled.

She smiled, so beautifully, thanked me and went back to her friends. My guy friends came forward to me and smack my head. All saying that I've done a great job for making a hottie talk to me. I just smiled and thanked them. Thinking about the situation that just happened.

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From then on, she became close and comfortable with me. Though I felt that she was still not being 100% open to me. And one random day, she came to me with a piece of contract. Black and white, formally documented.

"Zen? Let's keep our friendship the longest lasting one ever. I can't keep real friends for long due to my financial background. My overprotective brother always ended up finding all the hidden intentions of my so-called 'good friends'. So I have a contract with me, a proof to my brother that you are and will be a good, motiveless friend. Will you sign it for me?"

I was stunned. Shocked. Speechless. She wanted me as a good friend. I don't know if I should be happy or not, but this is the first step to something new. She trusts me. I'm trusted by her. I took the paper from her hand and read what was written:

I, Zen Charles (            ), will hereby be Harley's truthful best friend by giving her my trust, protection, care, concern, and loyalty, without having any ulterior motives. If the agreement is broken by Zen Charles within 4 years, he will face consequences such as family bankruptcy and the inability to find a job elsewhere. He will only be able to work for the Levin family as a servant until Harley is satisfied and has forgiven him. Monthly pay will be given. Additional consequences might be added, depending on Harley.

I, Harley Levin (Harley), hereby agree to the above statements for Zen Charles. If the agreement is broken by Harley Levin within 4 years, she will do what Zen wants her to do until he is satisfied and has forgiven her. No inhuman acts and it can only be done after the approval from the Levin family.

(Zen Charles, please state any further changes you want in this contract and please sign beside your name in the first paragraph.)

Clark Levin

2012

"Harley, is this even necessary? I feel a bit forced into being your friend and that's not what friendship is about. It should be natural, not contract based." Honestly, family bankruptcy? Servant? Which part of it is beneficial to me? I know her family wants to protect her but seriously? Although I love her, is this worth the risk? I don't understand her that well enough to sacrifice my family wealth on her, though she is a lot richer than me and her parents are able to make anyone bankrupt with just a snap of their fingers.

I can tell she felt bad for me. She hesitated and finally spoke. "I'm sorry Zen. This isn't what I wanted but I need to show my brother that you're a good friend. This is not written by me, it's by my brother, Clark Levin. See, it's stated at the bottom. I believe our friendship will last a lifetime."

Ouch. I want to make a family with you throughout my lifetime. Not just as friends. She said she believed in me, I believe in her too. I guess this is just a 'risk' to take.

I took the paper and signed on it. I added on: If the agreement is broken by Harley Levin within 4 years, she will be engaged to Zen Charles.

=End of Flashback=