I went to my bed and laid down, feeling the tears stains on my cheeks even after bathing. I felt no anger towards Glenn. I knew the feeling of being forced to marry another. Though I was forced to marry Glenn, I did not mind.
Clark too was also once forced into an arranged marriage. His fiancée was someone who did not even know how to speak proper English. The communication between them was just 'How's your day?', 'Morning' and 'Goodnight'. It was so bad till he threatened to commit suicide.
I knew Clark was just playing with my parents' psychology. I even encouraged him to die and my parents were beyond shocked. They let it passed due to my younger age and treated my words as I still do not know what I am talking about.
They finally dismissed his arranged marriage after his fiancée knew he was desperately trying not to marry her. Due to that, the business relations between both companies were jeopardised. Until now, Clark and I can still joke about it.
However, my case will be different. Everything about Glenn was too good. He is richer than Clark's previous fiancée, more influential in the business world and looks wise, he won the upper majority. He treated me like his everything, something that Zen cannot give me at times.
Zen was good enough for me, a loving man was all I needed. But in a situation like this, what would those who were forced into an arranged marriage do?
Glenn and his family already left an hour ago, the last thing he said to me was, "If I could, I would rather propose to you than to force you into this. In the beginning, I wanted to reject this. But if you think about it, no matter what you do, your marriage will be arranged. It hurts, even more, to see you get married off to someone who you do not know. I would rather marry you myself."
I knew he was being protective but he was right. I would rather marry someone who I knew and someone who I can trust. It was not that I do not like Glenn. A part of me liked him too.
The one thing that he said that kept ringing in my head. "You can treat as if nothing of such happened. I will try to drag the marriage, if possible for my side until you're ready. I will wait for you, I will even dismiss this marriage if you really don't want to. Just remember, I'll be here for you. Don't treat me like an enemy."o
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I woke up remembering I have school today. I got plenty of time for preparation as I could not sleep properly during the night. I kept getting haunted by both Zen and Glenn pestering me for an answer.
I was feeling neither happy nor sad, unable to decide what to wear. None of the colours fit my mood. I just grabbed something black and tried to match.
As usual, Clark would be the one preparing my breakfast and fetching me to school. My parents already left the country to manage the company overseas.
"How are you feeling today, Harley?" Clark asked with his back facing me as he cooked breakfast. His voice sounded emotionless.
I tried laughing it off to ease the atmosphere. "I'm fine, how else can I be?"
He turned his back, holding on to the frying pan in one hand and the spatula in the other. The apron he wore was too flowery, not fitting the situation now. "What did Glenn talk to you about?"
I decided it was best not to look at him. "He gave me time to think about things and told me the truth on why I'm having an arranged marriage with him."
I continued my explanations over breakfast. Clark seemed pleased with how Glenn was right about me being married off to someone else sooner or later. Even he agreed that I should marry someone I know than someone I never met before.
"Hard to admit, I might like this guy. I might even give my support on this marriage." He sipped his favourite vanilla latte.
"Clark. Levin. Are you even helping me?"
"What about Zen?"
Zen. I don't know what to do about him. Sometimes I just felt that I should not choose either of them, for I think I have loved both. My feeling changes as I receive love from either one of them. "I don't know."
Clark sighed. "Do remember one thing, my dear. You don't always have to pick one guy among those two. There are plenty of guys everywhere. The right one for you might still be out there. There is still time, lots of time before you get married off to Glenn. Think about it, have some personal time for yourself, before making the decision. Lastly, it's time to head to school."
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