Indecisive

Chapter 26

"Look at me, Harley. You agreed to look at me in the eyes when answering to my one question. You're blushing again, do you know that? Your ears are red."

The moment that question left his lips, I hid my face in his chest. Any reply from me is just going to sound like a confession.

"I don't want to answer you. You tricked me into it. You want me to confess, don't you?"

"I just want to confirm my doubts. If you choose not to answer, it is fine by me. I will not force you into it."

"Are you doing the reverse psychology thing on me again?"

"Maybe. It also depends on how sensitive you are."

Do I really love Zen?

Though our friendship started off from a contract, he is still my best friend and he is as close as my family member. I needed him most of the time, losing him is as good as losing Clark.

Then again, all these feelings might just be an infatuation. I know I can't lose him. Maybe I just like the way he has been treating me all these while. His kindness is beyond compare, no matter how many times I received concern from other guy friends.

Zen was already busy poking my cheeks with his fingers. He continued smiling to himself, not knowing that I was staring at him. I absentmindedly smiled at his cute smile. If he was to leave me, can I take it?

I was fidgeting on top of Zen, thinking hard as I forgotten about his presence beneath me.

I might love Zen. Maybe I really do.

"You there?"

I pushed myself up, my palms on his chest.

"Ouch, don't forget you're on me, Harley."

"Yes, yes. I realised." I smacked both my hands on his face, forcing his eyes to mine.

"Harley Levin. What the hell are you doing? It hurts."

"Zen Charles. I think I might love you."

His eyes widen as he sat up immediately. The reaction was so fast till I was falling off my bed. He pulled me back to his lap as soon as I screamed.

He grabbed me by the waist and my forearms were on his shoulders for support. By now I was looking down at him, while he looked up to me.

"Say that again."

"I adore you." I chuckled this time. He looked into my eyes then smiled.

"Kiss me, I want a kiss from you."

I wrapped my arms around his neck and went down to kiss him. The kiss felt so comfortable as if it is mine, to begin with. Just when I chose to break away from the contact, he followed my lips and kissed me back.

He tightened his hold on my waist, making sure I won't leave him. The intoxicating kiss left me on cloud nine, wanting more as it deepened.

He bit my lips and took the opportunity to enter my mouth without permission. I was taken aback, it was getting harder to breathe.

I felt him move as we kissed, it was getting awkward as he started kissing above my lip line. I opened my eyes to see him removing his jacket. This time, I lightly pushed him away from me.

"During the courting period, you stole my kisses. After my confession, you're planning on getting naked now?" I teased, wanting to see him panic.

"No, no, I was getting a bit hot, that's all." He blushed. That was an unexpected reaction from him. And I liked it.

I sat on him and seductively pushed him down slowly, while staring into his eyes, smiling. From supporting himself using his forearms to lying down flat on the bed. I started moving my hands on his abs.

"What... are you... doing..."

I moved my hands upwards, at the same time pushing his shirt up. I felt his heartbeat increasing every inch I moved.

This is getting interesting.

I caressed up to his shoulders, he was half naked on my bed.

I need to tempt him. Let's see how dirty his mind can get.

I went flat down on him, with my breasts sliding on his naked chest. I sat on his crotch, unintentionally aroused him. He bit his lips hard. Something was now poking me behind.

I controlled my laughter as I continued. I wrapped my arms around his neck, making sure I'm still in bodily contact with him. I moved up slowly, my face reaching his.

He seemed to regain his focus and his hands started roaming around my lower back, pushing up my shirt, touching my bare skin. I felt the heat emitting from his hands, it was starting to get too dangerous for me.

A general rule to myself: Sex only after marriage.

He unhooked the bra strap in one swift moment, leaving me feeling naked. I quickly gave him a peck on his cheek and jumped off the bed.

I turned back to see his amusing look on his face. He was covering his urinal organ with embarrassment.

"Harley, I'm going to kill you!"

"I know you won't bear to! You enjoyed it yourself!" I ran out of my room and down the stairs laughing.

Clark was holding on to the house phone, staring out of the windows.

"Clark?"

"Harley..."

"What's wrong?"

"Harley Levin you get here this instance!" Zen shouted as his footsteps could be heard from where I was.

"You're engaged through an arranged marriage, my dear sister."

No. No, no, no. it can't be. "Clark, don't lie to me."

"I'm not."

Tears started forming in my eyes. "Don't lie to me!"

"Harley..."

My legs weakened, I had to hold on to the stair railings for support. Zen stood at the top of the stairs, immobilised.

He must have heard everything, I know he did. Clark started walking towards me. I wanted him to leave me alone but nothing came out of my speech. There was no sound coming out from me. Everything starting blurring.

"HARLEY!" was what I last heard from the both of them.