Indecisive

Chapter 18

"Harley, can I talk to you alone?" Zen suddenly got all serious in the midst of the discussion. Glenn looked taken aback. I took a while to register what he just said.

I nodded in confusion. "Sure, of course."

We went to the corridor to speak. All classrooms are required to close the doors and translucent windows during lessons, so the corridors will always be quiet and peaceful.

Zen took my hands gently in his. I could tell he was sorry about something. He was rubbing his thumbs along my fingers. "Regarding about yesterday, I need to apologise to you, Harley. I don't know what came over me. I guess I just want to release the emotions in me. But my confession was sincere. Don't leave me because you're shocked from what had happened yesterday."

His eyes were getting a little red and teary. I can't stand the sight of him in pain. He had been with me since I entered this school. He's my closest friend. Anything from him will affect me too. I reached for his neck and pulled him into a hug. I smooth his hair with my free hand.

"Zen, I will not leave you. It pains me to see you emotionally hurt but I don't think I'm ready for any relationships as of now. I don't want you to leave me either." I went forward to kiss him once on the lips. Then it hit me.

What did I just do?

Zen's eyes widen but he smiled afterwards. He dragged me into a hug, wrapping both his arms behind my back and waist. I turned my head to the left to adjust my head from hitting on to Zen's hard rock chest, only to see Glenn staring through the rectangular glass panel of the door, holding on to my phone, stunned.

*****

"Yes... Yes, mum, I got it... Okay, love you too... See you soon." I ended the call, tightening my hold on my phone as I looked down at Glenn, who was sitting quietly, waiting for me to end the phone call. We were already in the classroom, Ms Rain is not back from the meeting. "Glenn...?"

He smiled weakly at me, his eyes showing signs of depression. "Are you and Zen dating...?"

"No no no, I'm not dating him. Don't get the wrong idea."

"Then why did you kiss him just now?"

I don't know. Those 3 words were stuck in my mind since the time I involuntarily kissed him. I looked at Zen, who was now smiling happily, teaching our classmates how to do their Math. Do I like him?

"I don't know. I felt his pain so I just subconsciously went forward and gave him a peck. It was just a peck. It didn't mean much."

From Glenn's expression, I knew my reply was bullshit to him. "Then, kiss me. I'm in pain too."

I faked my laughter. "Glenn, stop playing with me."

He stood up from his seat, dragged me into him by my waist and placed his lips on mine. I heard gasps and wolf whistles around me. With the commotion, I'm pretty sure Zen would have already seen what was going on. My eyes were left wide open, my body not moving an inch. The kiss lasted around three seconds before he moved away.

His face came close again, this time next to my ears, away from the class's view.

He whispered. "Thank you for the kiss, Harley. I love you." He pulled back and looked into my eyes, with a smirk on his face.

The entire class clapped loudly.