Coming Out 101

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hi. i'll go by the name of george. but pronounced the spanish way. whore-hay. anyway, now that that's out of the way, this is my story of realizing that i'm asexual/aromantic(?) but i always have some questions? so me and my friend used to always fantasize about how future dates would be or our dream boy. she'd create a "fanfic" of herself and her crush and then she'd tell me to do one. i never had a crush so i just made up someone. but the problem was, nothing sounded good to me. i'd try to come up with kind of the same things as her but they never sounded appealing to me. then i started dating. i had a crush on that person for maybe a day or two, and they'd always find out and ask me out. being the stupid person i am, i would say yes and then realize "eh i don't like you." that's how most of my relationships ended. i always felt bad but i didn't, because i wouldn't want to be in a relationship where it's only going one way.then one time, i realized that vaginas and penises are gross? like, i hate them both. they both make me very uncomfortable feeling and i just want to stay away from them. this got me thinking. i then realized i don't even want a sexual relationship. i barely even want someone kissing me. so, my question is, what am i? would this be called asexual? because i think it is..? or maybe aromantic.. i've only told two people about this situation and they couldn't help because neither of them knew squat about the LGBTQ+ community. anyway, yeah, that's me. :)