Coming Out 101

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Hi I'm wolf and I'm a bisexual teenage girl I had a hard time coming out seeing as tho most of my friends I'm pretty sure were homophobes and I wasn't sure how my family would react etc I thought I was going to be kicked out of my house so I was walking through the school halls and I was already being pushed around and teased and bullied and I was also loosing some of my closest friends (this part maybe a bit triggering for some people) after a while of being bullied and botteling up all of my feelings I eventually went into an emotional break down I literally vouildnt take it any more I had a crush on my best friend she was a girl and I didn't tell her because I wasn't sure how she would react it all got really over whelming and I was being bullied alotmore and my bottle eventually broke I couldn't take it any more it was just before midnight (yet again triggering content) and I had an eraser next to my be I started harming my self with an every day stationary item I his it from everyone and then lost my best friend because of it her mum didn't tryst me anymore she didn't think I was stable to be around her we were close and when we were texting one day I told her that I was bisexual it was hard we face timed each other and I told her she let the news spread across the school and eventually I would never even be in the court yard I would always go to the library it was my safe place when I was in the halls I got called a faggot a freak eventually I just tried to block it out but with me how I am, it just stayed I just bottle my emotions up and blocking them out didnt work... It got to the point of me not wanting to go to school and once a month (when I did have a phone) my parents would check my phone to see if I was being cyber bullied and things like that my parents saw the messages of her saying "I can't believe youre bi" and they saw the messages and were thankfully really understanding and didn't mind that icwas bi at all it boosted myself confidence a little but the bulling was still going on even the people who I would walk to school with would make fun of me my mum gave me the option to either home educated or stay in schoolI chose to home educate and now I have made some good online friends and some friends at a camp I have met and they have all helped me so much it just shows if you can work through all the bulling you can succeed happiness and a lot of people have it worse than me a lot worse but I'm glad I actually have people there to help me through this stuff