Coming Out 101

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My name is Asuna Singer, at least, that's my pen name. I'm still kind of questioning, but for now I have officially come out as Bisexual / Biromantic to the school and my family. But I believe I am actually pansexual or just gay, but that's besides the point.I was in 6th grade and I was straight up until then. It's hard for me to realize I have crushes because I never get flustered and I get butterflies in my stomach around just about everybody, but it was around maybe January this year when I realized I had feelings for one of my best friends. When I told her she started throwing coco puffs at me and screaming. We kind of pretended nothing happened, our friendship wasn't any different, luckily. Then there was this other girl. We will call her Elizabeth, we hated each other for most of elementary school but all of a sudden I felt like I liked her. At our friends birthday party I realized I liked her a lot and I came out because I wanted to open myself up to her, even though I didn't know her sexuality at the time. Our school is very accepting and I ended up in a relationship with a good friend of mine as a prank which I though ended up real because it went on for 7 full months, she dumped me because she didn't want to pretend to be bisexual anymore, which broke my heart because I liked her and it took my mind off of Elizabeth. Our friendship was then more awkward. What ended up happening was me having a massive crush on Elizabeth, we were kind of friends and this girl started a rumor that we were dating but Elizabeth was dating a different girl at the time. A few weeks later Elizabeth left the girl and I worked up the courage to ask her out on a friend's iPad, since I don't have my own phone. And to my surprise, she said yes! Turns out the reason Elizabeth never talked to me was because she was always blushing and getting flustered around me for the past year, and she came out as gay for ME! To this day we are dating and I really, really like her. When I came out, though was months before that. I told my brothers firs, they tease me about it and bring it up to friends which leaves me in an awkward situation. When I came out to my mom, I thought she knew, so I said it very asking and non-chalantly, but she freaked out and told me it was a phase. She eventually saw that I'm not changing and accepts me fully. My dad was the one I didn't want to tell because he already looks down on me as the "runt of the litter" or something, even though I'm it the youngest. I kept it a secret from him for months, until my brother brought it up, he seems still disappointed in me and thinks it's a phase or something. I don't think he really accepts me, but it did something to our relationship. So for anybody thinking about coming out, I say, go for it, you never know who is going to like you. Most of my friends took my courage on coming out on ways to come out themselves, almost everybody in my friend group is either gay or bi.  Sure you will have little things that push your buttons or make your blood boil, but you will get over it, you will survive. If you don't want to come out, that's okay too! Do what's right for you! Everyone deserves to be happy.See all you gay peeps around ️‍️‍️‍Cya!