Crash into me

CIM.04 - Morning After

"Tama na... Ang sakit-sakit na kaya."

I rolled away from Angela. I sat beside her and looked at her. She was spent. Napapapikit na siya habang nakahiga roon, moments later she was asleep. Inis na tumayo ako at nag-shower. I was under it, trying to take everything away from my head. It felt like my head was spinning. Hindi na nga ako makahinga. Pinindot ko ang shower at lumabas ako roon. Nagpatuyo ng katawan at saka nagbihis. I left the hotel room – not knowing where to go.

I need to get her face out of my mind. I don't need her in my mind right now. I don't need Mazikeen Consunji boggling in my head. Nakakasira ng plano.

I walked the grounds of CLPH. Naghahanap ako ng bar. May nakita naman ako kaya kaagad akong pumasok roon. Dumiretso ako sa bar tender. I ordered black scotch on the rocks with a bit of salt on the side. That is my favorite drink. I sat there, drinking, tryog to wash away her face, the pain in her eyes and the strain in her voice.

I closed my eyes. I need to get it out of my system.

I need to get her out!

"Whoa! That's too strong!"

And then, that's her voice. I could hear her voice as if she was just in the same room. But then it seemed so real so I looked around and found Mazikeen Consunji on top of the piano—drinking, wearing only her bra while the guys were all around her, feasting all over her.

Nagtiim ang bagang ko. I looked away.

But then they shouted Take it off! Take it off! Body shots! I lost it. Tumayo ako at lumakad papunta sa mga taong iyon. Hinatak ko si Mazikeen pababa sa piano top.

"Oopps! Whoa! Hey! What are you doing here, asshole?!" Pilit niyang binabawi ang kamay niya sa akin.

She was drunk as fuck.

"I am taking you home," Wika ko sa kanya. Itinulak niya ako.

"You're a kill joy!" She giggled. "Body shots!"

"Tumigil ka nga Mazikeen!" Hindi ko napigilan ang sumigaw. "Iayos mo ang sarili mo! Hindi ka naman ganyan dati!"

"Well, guess what?! Pain changes people you mother fucking son of a bitch!" She spat on me. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

"Pare, ayaw naman niyang sumama sa'yo kaya iwan mo na lang kami!" Nagtawanan pa sila. Nagdilim ang paningin ko kaya sinapak ko iyong isa, iyong isa ay pinalo ko ng bote sa ulo, bago pa man sila makaganti ay binuhat ko na si Mazikeen palabas doon. Naghanap ako ng guard at sinabi sa kanila kung anong nangyari. Good thing, namukhaan ako ng isa sa mga iyon kaya sinabi niya sa akin na siya na daw ang bahala. Mazikeen was on my shoulder. Pumapalag siya pero hindi ko siya binibitiwan.

I put her inside the golf car. Kahit na lasing na lasing ay nagpipilit pa rin siyang bumaba doon.

"Mazikeen!" Galit na tawag ko.

"Tse! Gagapang akong parang si Sadako! H'wag mo akong hawakan! I hate you!" Tumakbo siya na bra lang ang suot. I had no choice but to run after her at nang mahuli ko siya ay hinubad ko ang suot kong t-shirt para isuot sa kanya iyon.

"Nakakahiya ka!" I yelled at her. "Do you even see yourself?! What the fuck are you doing?! Kulang na lang ibenta mo ang sarili mo sa mga iyon!"

"Mabuti pa nga kung bibilihin nila ako! Eh hindi naman dahil hindi naman ako maganda! Whatever I do I will never be model like beautiful!" She cried again. Fuck it! I don't ever wanna see her like this.

"Tumigil ka na."

"Umalis ka na! Dalhin mo na itong t-shirt mo na binili mo gamit ag pera mo na galing sa mga babaeng naikama mo kapalit ng pera nila!" She took my shirt off tapos ay ibinato niya iyon sa akin. Akmang aalis siya nang bigla na lang siyang madapa. I took that as a chance to pull her up and take her.