Alina's Past Lives.

The Goodbye.

I wake up when I roll over and my nose bumps against Damon's chin. I peek at the clock it was five in the morning. Damon was still sleeping, and I was late. I get up and write two letters. One to Elena, and the other to Damon.

"Elena-

    There's a part of your sister still in me that calls for you every moment. She yearns for you and what you represented for her. She misses the stupid arguments and the laughter that echoed throughout our family home. But there is also a large part of Thalia in here who screams for Klaus, for the life she had with him. I feel like two people are at war inside of me, fighting for control but for the moment I have to embrace Thalia. I have these memories of Alina now but I owe it to myself to try and remember who I am. Who Thalia was. I hope you understand why I chose to embrace this side and not that of your sister. I was once very much like you, young and very much in love with a man who filled the emptiness in my heart. I came across a love that took over and spread like wildfire in my soul. A love so strong that it transcended lifetimes. I can't let that go. If you love Stefan as much as I love Klaus then you will understand why I have to go. I feel as if he holds a piece of my soul within him at all times and whenever we are apart I can feel it calling for me, reaching out to me. We are like magnets you see, it hurts to be apart. I leave you with your sister's diary and the knowledge that you are not and never will be alone. Alina will always be here in me, deep down and hidden, but still there."

"Damon-

You will have the most important job of all, you can't look for me. Do not follow us. Your job is to take care of my sister in my absence. I will keep her recovery a secret from Klaus for as long as I can but you cannot try to find us. Keep my little sister safe and hidden away. In my final moments as Alina I lied to you all and sacrificed myself so Elena could live a long happy human life. That's what she deserves and that's what I intend for her to have. My last gift as her sister. Please protect her. I have a feeling we will meet again, perhaps in another life time. I will always regret this, leaving you and breaking your heart but I can't stay in Mystic falls. I will lead Klaus as far away as I can and distract until Elena passes peacefully old and grey in her bed. I can't promise that I will come back, but I will do my best even if I have to cross the world a thousand times and a thousand times over I will find you again. Fate has separated us and brought us back together many times perhaps there's room for one more. That is the beauty of eternity, you never know where you will end up. I fear I will miss you the most. Your letter is the longest for I fear you will need it the most. So you can read my words when you are down and feel the hope it is meant to send. You can read my words when my lips are too far for you to hear. And so you can read over it when I am no longer able to tell you how much I love you. Everything is different with you because I loved you while I was still Thalia. I loved you before I died, before Alina was ever born. You weren't a piece of this life that I was thrown into, I chose to love you while I was still me and somehow I managed to find you again. I cannot ask you to wait for me, for I will be gone for a very long time. It would be selfish of me to make you wait for me, for a woman who may not even exist anymore. I can already feel the darkness inside of me taking root and I fear then next time we cross paths I will be a different person. I was cursed because the monsters of the world feared me. They feared what I could do. The things I did do. I left a trail of bodies across the world with no remorse and no regrets. Hybrids are much more beast than man and it's easy to get blinded by the bloodlust. But the temptation of my dark magic corrupted my mind and twisted my morals in the past. Maybe I'll be able to resist my urges. But I know myself and I know deep inside I am the monster they say I was. Stay as far away from me as you can.

-Thalia."

I kiss Damon softly on the lips and leave the note on the bed next to him and grab my phone and leave.