You're The Closest Friend I've Got-A lams fanfic

Part 29- Bad memories

Shortly after the news was broken, Eliza and James left.  Alexander and John sat back down on the couch, they were both smiling and filled with joy about what was coming their way in a little under nine months.

"We should start coming up with name's!" John exclaimed, Alexander chuckled.

"We have eight months to do that my love" Alexander said sleepily, "Why dont we jut enjoy this first day home." John nodded and they went back to watching the movie.

As Alexander nodded off to sleep, John thought about how different he had been acting.  Alexander hadn't talked about work, or his writing, or really anything that he was passionate about.  John tried t shrug it off as just part of the healing process.  Alexander had just been shot, h thought.  But it kept coming back and picking at John's brain.

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Angelica was sitting in her apartment with Peggy, Eliza had moved in with James about a week and a half ago.  Peggy was draped across the couch texting Maria, and Angelica was trying to read a book, but she couldn't get her encounter with Thomas out f her head.

"Ang?" Peggy said suddenly

"What is is Peggy?" Angelica answered.

"I'm thinking of of getting my own apartment." Peggy said softly.

"That's ni-" Angelica paused realizing what her sister had just said, "What?" she asked.

"I just want my own place, I've lived with my sisters for almost twenty one years." Peggy said.

"I mean, I guess if that's how you feel." Angelica said.

"I'm glad you think that, because I may have already found a place and put an offer on it." Peggy laughed.  Angelica scoffed, she was happy for her sister but she was going to be only in the big, empty apartment alone.  

Angelica went back to reading her book and Peggy to her phone.  Soon Peggy got up and left the apartment, she said she was going to Maria's.  Angelica put down her book and went to go take a shower, she put music on her phone and climbed in the shower.  bout halfway through her shower, the music stopped and her phone was ringing.  Angelica though it was probably one of her friends calling to chat, so ignored it and waited until the music came back on.

When she got out of the shower, Angelica didn't even check to see who it was.  She got dressed and then went to the kitchen to make some tea.  While the tea was steeping, Angelica pulled out her phone to check who had called her.  

It was a blocked number, but they ha left a voice message, so Angelica set her phone n the counter and hit play.

"Umm. Oh that was the beep" It was Thomas Jefferson.  Angelica debated stopping it but she decided to head him out.

" I know you hate me, and you have very right to, I hate me!  What I did to you was horrible.  I'm not trying to ask for forgiveness, because I haven't even forgiven myself. I just  wanted to tell you that I'm so sorry.  umm, I wont be in your life any more, or anyone's life for that matter."  The message ended.  Angelica sat at her kitchen counter stunned, what did he mean by "I wont be in anyone's life anymore" she though.

Suddenly Angelica impulsively jumped up and grabbed her coat, she hated Thomas with every inch of her body.  But she couldn't just sit there when he could be taking his life.  Angelica rushed out the door, down the hall and then out onto the cold New York street.  She had no idea where Thomas was but she had an idea where to look.  She hailed a taxi and gave them the address to an old apartment complex on the outskirts of the city.  

When the cab driver pulled over in front of the crumbling building, Angelica paid him and slid out.  She rushed into the complex and then took the stairs to the third floor, Angelica ran down the hall and then stopped in front of a door marked 3F .  She jiggled the handle, it was locked locked.

Angelica luckily had a bobby in in her pocket and was able to shimmy the lock open.  She shoved trough the door and looked around, The front room was clean, unlike the last time she had been there.  It hardly looked like Thomas's apartment, but she could tell by the old cough and few posters that he was still living here.           

Angelica heard a thudding sound coming from the bathroom.  She rushed over and tried the door nob, it was locked too.  Angelica used the bobby pin again and popped the lock open, when she opens the door she could hardly believe her eye's.  

Thomas was sitting on the floor, he was surrounded by pill bottles and pills.  He was struggling with the lid of a small orange bottle.  Angelica didn't know what to do so she swung her foot as hard as she could and kicked the bottle out of Thomas's hand.  He looked up at her with tear stained eye's, he opened his mouth to say something, but no words came out.  angelica fell to her knees and grabbed Thomas's hand,

"How many did you take?" She asked.

"N-none" He said shaking his head.

"Thomas, why?" Angelica said

"everyone hate's me." He said.

"That' true," Angelica paused realizing how he wasn't helping, "But that dont mean your kill your self, you try to move on, try to make it better." She said.

"No one need's me" Thomas said.

"Don't play mind games with me." Angelica said.  She didn't want to be bitter, but every second she spent in this dump, the memories she worked worked hard to repress came flooding back.

"Ang, Angelica, why did you come?" Thomas asked.  Angelica sighed, she was asking herself that same question.

"I couldn't sand idle by while someone took their own life." she said, that was partly the truth.  Angelica stood up, pulling Thomas up with her, she led him out of the bathroom and then into his bedroom.  Angelica directed him to lay down, he did and then she started to walk out of the bedroom.

"Are you leaving?" Thomas asked.

"This bedroom, but like hell that I'm going to leave you alone tonight." Angelica snapped.  She walked out and into the kitchen, he went through the cupboard's and was hot by a new wave of memories.

//flashback//

Angelica was scrambling around Thomas's kitchen, he was still asleep and she was starving. She threw open the cupboard doors, they were almost bare, all that was n the shelves were a package of ramen, a few slices of stale bread and the smell of weed.  She lightly closed the cupboard and went to the fridge, nothing there either.  

Angelica spun around to go back to bed, but was met with Thomas's large figure.  He pushed her up against the fridge,

"What were looking for fat ass?" he said, Angelica could smell the beer and weed on his breath.  

"Just some food, dont be such and ass hole." She replied.  Thomas grabbed her arm tightly,

"Don't talk to me like that!" He yelled and then slapped her in the face.  Angelica grabbed her cheek and pushed past him, she grabbed her bag and shoes and stormed out of the apartment.

That wasn't the first time Thomas had hit her, and certainly not the worst, she had the bruises and scars to prove it.  But she kept going back, she thought he would change...she though she loved him.

//fin//

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I'm back! Here's a long chapter for you! I hope you enjoy!---Kaay