Temptation

Chapter 55

Cameron's POV

I had never seen so much fear in Taylor's eyes, let alone Sammy's. He was tough and stubborn as shit and I knew he hated me. So why was he here? Attempting to pretend and care about Alice and I.

He asked Shawn and I to follow him to this mysterious, unknown place. Apparently we couldn't speak in public. And maybe it's because Shawn and I both care so much about Alice, that we'd say and do anything to make sure she was okay. It's that affection that lead us to follow them. But now that I thought about it, this was an idiotic move. But it was too late to turn back now.

Shawn and I drove the same car, because despite what those assholes said, I didn't trust them.

I couldn't bare the sensation I felt every time I heard Alice's name. The mix of happiness and fear all at once. If I'm being honest with myself I didn't know how long I could keep up this lie. This uncertainty in the back of my mind that wouldn't  allow me to be happy with her was enough torture to force me into telling her the truth. It was a constant battle within myself that made me make some horrible decisions. Some I couldn't take back, others I could delete but never erase...

The night Alice and I spent together, I couldn't sleep. I knew I had finally gotten her, she was mine and she wouldn't leave. For once I didn't fear her rejection and her absence. But I knew she would leave eventually, when she found out about this game.

Holding her in my arms, thinking that might have been the one and only time I had felt full happiness. The fear made my heart leap out my chest. It made my insides writhe with terror and in my most desperate moment, in my most venerable estate, I gave into the game. I thought it was the only way out, but as I hit sent, to that nude picture of Alice in the bed ... I instantly wished I could take it back.

Now, after all of this, Skate had something to hold against me. And I had been the one to give to him....

I had no idea what was going on with Alice right now, if she was okay... if she knew about the game... And the unknown was eating me inside.

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Shawn drove fast, impatiently tapping his fingers against the steering wheel. He reeked of fear and nerves, and it was driving me fucking insane. I was afraid too, if anything I was more afraid than he was. Because I knew what these guys were capable of. He was just getting a little taste.

The one thing that still didn't resonate with me was Matt. Was he on their side the entire time? Playing both Alice and I? But then why would Skate stab him, and why would he protect Alice and--fuck!!! It didn't make any sense...

Shawn honked at the car in front of us, disrupting my thoughts. "The light has been green for three minutes you idiot!" He yelled.

I rolled my eyes, groaning. "Dude, will you chill out?"

I wasn't trying to yell or get even more frustrated, but Shawn pushed me over the edge.

"That's easy for you to say Cameron, you're used to this life. Living in fear, playing with girls emotions. I get that's your type of thrill, but not mine. Especially when it has to do with Alice!" He boomed, not even bothering the fact the traffic was now moving and he wasn't.

I stood quiet, I knew he was right... And I didn't have it in me to argue with him, or to even defend myself.

I was a piece of shit. Undeserving of a girl like her, but I lived with that constant reminder everyday. I didn't need anyone, especially Shawn reminding me of it.