Temptation

Chapter 57

Alice's POV

Friday Night: 10:53 pm.

// The beginning of the end. //

Some endings you never see coming, sometimes you only see the beginning of a huge storm. This is how the ending to everything started. 

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I turned on the television in my room to fill the void of silence in the air. I changed the channels several times until something caught my eye in the television screen. I stopped dead in my steps and stared straight into the Television in front of me.  It was Jack and Rose, from The Titanic. They intertwined lips, and perhaps it was Leonardo D'Caprio's great acting but it felt real. I've watched this movie long ago. Before, this movie seemed like a tragic love story, but now I couldn't help but relate myself to Rose. She loved Jack so dearly, she was willing to give up her life, her money, her family just to be with him. 

I always thought Rose was an idiot for it. I never understood why'd she'd risk everything for a guy she just met on a boat. I still didn't know if I would go beyond my limits to be with my person I loved. 

I laid in my bed, my head resting on my pillow as I starred at the Television. I was at lost of emotions and tears. Completely numb. Time felt like my worst enemy right now, it was as if I could hear the ticking of every second and every minute in the back of my mind. It was this clock that seemed to remind me that my life was slipping through my finger and I could do absolutely nothing about it.  My mother trapped me in my room once we got home from the hospital, she insisted I rested, but I knew she just didn't want me coming out of my room. She left me without my phone and now without my computer too. All I had was my television to drown time with.

My day just replayed over and over in my head, from the car accident, to finally speaking to Shawn without feeling weird or awkward, and to confronting my mother in the hospital room. A small part of me couldn't help but wonder, "what if my mother had came in only ten minutes later? Would I have seen Cameron walk in through that hospital room?"

I waited on the universe to respond... But I knew the answer would never come and I was slowly giving up on this fairytale  ending I hoped we would one day get. The only thing holding me together was the 'A' shaped necklace on my neck that I refused to take off. It was then I realized I had no evidence of him. No pictures to remember him by, this necklace was the only evidence that he had ever been with me. Just this! And this was nothing...

I contemplated running away, but where would I ran to? Who would I run to? I felt hopeless...

I knew I was going to fall back into the same routine when I got back to Arizona: wake, school, cry and sleep. Wondering where I went wrong and how I let this happen.

Would he come after me as I hoped he would?

The pounding at my door made me shot up and wipe away the tears in my eyes instantly. My mother, again. "How are you feeling?" She walked in through the door wearing her pajamas and holding a large blanket and a pillow.

"Fine," I responded. "But I'd like to get some sleep, if you don't mind."

I starred at her as she dismissed my statement and laid the blanket nicely on the floor. "I won't bother you. What are you watching?" She was being extremely calm, conservative. She wanted something from me and I didn't know what.

When I didn't respond she turned to the Television herself and her eyes widened. "You're watching The Titanic?" My mothers judgment was bouncing off the walls. 

I rolled my eyes. "It was the only thing to watch, considering you took my phone and my computer away."

My mother ignored my snarky comment and turned back to the Television. Rose was running to Jack, red cheeks, worried eyes, and trembling lips. She reached over and ran into her lovers arms.  "Rose! You're so stupid! Why'd you do that, huh?" Jack kissed Rose's lips desperately. We were on the part when Rose jumped of the boat and came back to Jack.