Temptation

Chapter 39

Unexpected. That's the way life is. It throws the worst and best at you when you least expect it.

That's what happened to Cameron and I. When I first met him, little did I know I would end up falling head over heels for him. He was the boy I thought would never set eyes on a girl like me. He was the it factor, and I was a nobody. Our entire relationship has been so surreal and unexpected.

That unexpected way he hit me with that door and changed me forever.... The unexpected way our lips touched for the first time. The unexpected way he said he loved me then hurtfully took it back. The unexpected way I deeply fell for him....

I really need to think about what will happen next. If I finally admit to Cameron my feelings for him, there are two scenarios. Cameron will either say terrible things, and make me leave him, or he will admit the way he feels for me, and that all of these games he has been playing are just his way of not being able to cope with his feeling in a normal way. If the first scenario happened, which I mostly expect it to, I will be in an even worst estate then I am now, and I will probably be broken into a million of pieces. But if the second one were to happen, which I don't expect it to, I don't know what that would mean for us... Would that mean we're actually together? Would it mean that we would finally have a shot at love? And if so will he finally open up to me about his past and let me in?

The problem is I can't answer any of these questions myself, not a single one. God, I hate the way he clouds my thoughts and I can never think straight.

My fingers nervously tap against the steering wheel, as the other hand rests under my chin. I'm no longer crying, I'm puzzled, and exhausted. I hate how unpredictable he is, and I can never tell what he will say or do next. I'm always uncertain with him...

"Are you okay?" His voice finally breaks the silence in the small space between us and I glance over to look at him. That was the last thing I expected him to say.

"I'm fine..." I nod simply.

"Can I ask you a question?" His timid voice speaks.

"Sure, anything." I nod and his eyes sparkle with excitement.

"W-Why did you chose me?" Im not sure where he's going with this question and I furrow my eyebrows.

"I mean, why didn't you chose Jack? I thought you guys were together." He clears his throat awkwardly.

"Well we weren't officially together... I don't know what we were actually." I shrug confused.

"Oh.." His voice is barely audible. I can sense the awkwardness between us and I know I have to change the subject.

"So are you gonna tell me who you fought back there?" I ask nervously.

"Are you gonna tell me what happened to Sammy?" His voice intense, eyes blazing through me. Why is he making things so difficult already.

"I asked first." I state, my voice neutral.

"I can't answer your question." He shakes his head, and I feel my body's stiffen. "Because I don't even know who they were."

"What?" I arch a brow confused.

"They just a couple of douches who were harassing a girl." He states, and I can hear the venom and anger behind his voice.

"Oh," Is all I can manage. What else can I say to that?

"It's your turn, what the hell happened to Sammy?" He questions and I run a hand through my hair. Here we go...

"If I tell you, will you promise to not interrupt me until I am finished?" My voice cracks and I suddenly feel like crying.

"What? What happened, tell me!" He demands and I flinch away from him.