The Return (Once Upon a Time sequel)

Chapter 43

ZEN

"She's with the Indians." Felix explained in a hurry and I could see Pan's eyes widen in shock as he heard the news.

Poor little Jadey, getting herself into sticky situations again, I see.

My eyes stared blankly at the cave's floor and I could hear Peter's and Felix's quick footsteps which eventually faded into the darkness that separated me from the outside world.

The darkness.

The past month that I have been in here brought back so many  memories. Memories of my old self, memories of before I came here. Of my old life in England.

"Hehehe. Mom and dad will probably be nothing but ashes by now."

The words left my lips before I knew it. Mom, dad...Mentioning them like that, it really brought a smile to my face. I had never heard myself laugh so purely before. Before...

"I only wanted to protect you all..."

"Get out of here and never come back!Ever!!"

My eyes immediately opened as the thoughts crawled my mind.

I quickly found myself laying on the ground, breathing heavily. My heart was pounding at intense rates and I could feel it burn, sting inside my chest. So weak.
I felt so weak, so useless. It had been so long since I last had this feeling. Having someone tie me up and beat me till I almost passed out. Father...it's just like you did, when you had me tied and muffled in the attic whenever I acted up. All this endless torture I endured the past month. Mother, my sweet mother. I do remember just how much you enjoyed torturing me. Laying and strapping me on that metal chair in the basement every time I misbehaved. It has been so long ever since, but just now I realise, I am just as weak as I was back then. I could not fight back, I did not want to. I never did. I never wanted to fight, or hurt others. I never enjoyed any of this. How could I ever attack my best friend? My only friend! What kind of monster am I?!

"WHAT AM I?!" I shouted with all the strength that I had left, causing my voice to echo throughout my rock prison.

For so long I had tried to help everyone that I held dear. Everyone that ended up hurting me in the end, leaving me.

I don't understand! Why am I thinking about all these things now? Why? I don't get it! I can't take it anymore! I don't want this anymore! I never did! I want it all to end. Jade. You were right from the start. I am nothing but a-. Nothing but a broken mess. Words can't describe the pain I feel inside. My heart being twisted and shattering into a million pieces. I can't take this pain anymore! I can't.

Tears were streaming down my cheeks. I hadn't realised just for how long I had been crying.

I was just...I was tired of all this...

"So you finally admit it?" An all too familiar voice echoed in my head.

"You're nothing but a weakling. A failure of a man. A deffeated warrior. This is what you get for holding onto them. For cherishing them so much. Do you realise just how naive and stupid you are?"

"Yes..." I faintly said under my breath, not having the strength to speak any louder.

"Are you angry that you try so hard and yet you end up getting shit, sinking to the bottom?!" The voice asked.

"Yes."

"Are you tired of always being used?Of always being thrown away?"

"Yes."

"Are you willing to do anything to change that? Are you willing to give up everything for it to stop?"

"Yes."

"Everything?!"

"Yes!"

"Then you know what to do. You shall rise. The answer has been laying in front of you for so long. Go to rest warrior. Your journey has finally come to and end. Let me take it from here. I promise, I will treat carefully. I promise, I will make all your deepest desires come true. All OUR deepest desires. Are you ready?"

"Yes!"

"Then say it with me! Are you the one at fault here?"

"No!"

"What is wrong?"

"The world."

"What is wrong?!"

"The world!!"

My thoughts were loud, and strong.

The world is what's wrong! It always has been.

I will no longer be a pawn, no longer be weak! I will no longer let these foolish emotions get in my way! I won't let them hold me back anymore! I won't let anything hold me back anymore!
I ask you, what's wrong?

THE WORLD IS WRONG!

The world is wrong....