Thought Of You

Miserable

I just can't stand this anymore. I'm angry, Heartbroken, depressed, lonely, and just flat out miserable.



I don't have anybody. Justin is now my ex and Emily is still in a coma. How could my life get worse.



I could just tell myself that I'm living my dream as a dancer but I just can't because I'm experiencing this dream with the one that helped me heal and helped me believe in love again.


I just can't forget about what happened...maybe I should just pack up my things and go home but then I'll be giving up what I came here for.


I'm not gonna let a boy get in the way of my dreams.


Tommorow is the big day and I'm excited yet nervous because I'm gonna just be known as Justin's dancer again!


Great....I also have to still bodyrock with him. I wonder how awkward that's gonna be.


"Chill Aubree..just act professional and everything's gonna be ok." I told myself as I slowly drifted to asleep waiting for the big day tomorrow.



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*ding ding ding*



My phone went off making me jump.


I looked down at it and saw i got a new message from Justin.


Justin: Hey, I hope you're ready to start back up....I was just letting you know that I'm gonna pick you up and take us to the airport.



Me: ok....



Justin: can't wait to see you....I wanna talk.




Me: ok



I didn't even bother refusing because I knew it would come soon. So I might as well get it over with now.



Once I had the little things I had packed I texted Justin and told him I was ready and walked outside.


Once I saw Justin I threw my bags in the back in hopped in.


It was awkward I'm not gonna lie but then again I was kinda happy to see him.


"Soo I'm super excited for tonight's show!" He said breaking the silence.



"Yeah me too....."



"I'm glad you could join us!" He said staring at the road.



"Yeah this has always been my dream of mine." I said smiling.



"Yeah-look Aubree can we talk?"



"Yeah."



"Ok so what happened with Selena was a mistake...I thought I missed her but honestly when you left I realized I just miss you. I loved you so much it hurts. I thought I knew the meaning of love but when I met you...it was a whole different feeling. I can't go a second without thinking about you. I am in love with you. I have been miserable and depressed since you left. I need my baby back. I love you Aubree!" Justin said as a tear fell from his face.




I was absolutely speechless but then all of a sudden anger flew over me.




"If you truly loved me justin then why did you do it? I loved you more than anything. You were the one that taught me to love again and I trusted you with everything I had. I came to you about everything. I felt like it was me and you against the world. You owned my heart Justin...but you broke it. No you did more than break it, you murdered it and threw it over a bridge. I've been depressed too but the only reason I'm in this car with you right now is for my career. If it wasn't for that is be home right now." I said as tears poured down my face.




"Baby...I'm so sorry! Ok we can get through this! Our love is strong enough...please don't give up on me!" Justin said wiping his tears away.



"I don't know Justin....I think we should take a break. Who knows maybe this was a sign showing that we just weren't meant to be."



"No....we were meant to be baby! You are the one I want to marry and have my kids with. I wanna grow old with you. I'm not gonna give up on you Aubree! You are the one I love and im not gonna let you slip out of my hands so easily...I will fight for you!" Justin said as he glared at me with sadness in his eyes.



I quickly stared back at him and leaned towards him and placed a passionate yet gentle kiss on his lips.



"I love you Justin...but you need to move on."



He smirked which soon went away when he heard what I said.



"No....I'm not moving on! I will get you back if it's the last thing I do!"



I didn't know what to say because clearly he wasn't giving up on me so I just sat there silent as I heard Justin sniffle once and while and watched him wipe his tears away.



Once we got to the airport I grabbed my bags and went inside and immediately boarded the plane.



Justin sat right next to me which made it really awkward for me at least.



"Glad to be back on tour." Justin said to scooter who sat infront of us.



"Did you enjoy your guys break?" Scooter asked as he looked back at me and Justin.



"Yeah...it was fine." Justin said glaring at me.



"I'd rather not talk about it!" I said quickly getting up and running into another section of the private plane and sat down and just cried.



Why do I have these deep feelings for him. Why did I have to fall in love with him? Why would I think love would side with me this time? It always ends in heartbreak and I just can't take it anymore.



As I was crying into my hands I felt a pair of strong but gentle pair of arms wrap around me and bring me into his chest as I cried.



"Shhh...babe! I'm so sorry for causing these tears! If I could take them back I would! I feel like the worst human being ever. I hurt the one I loved the most." Justin said rubbing my back.



I pulled away and stared at him.




"Justin....when will you get that you did something wrong and I won't forgive you. I still love you but what you did crushed me and you can't take it back. You being around me just hurts us both. So please for me...just leave me alone." I said as I watched a tear fall from his face.



"Fine....but just know I'll always love you Aubree." Justin said as he walked back to his seat leaving me alone to cry in my hands.







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