I've been sitting in bed and was just thinking about my future. I am so honored to be able to live my dream but I just can't do it. These feelings aren't just gonna go away.
I tried to move on but I just can't. It's to hard. I cry myself to sleep every night thinking how I messed up everything.
I want Justin and Selena to be happy so that's why I officially decided to quit the tour. I've already called scooter and he completely understood but was mad.
I didn't bother to tell Justin because it would be to hard. I couldn't handle that pressure.
Tonight is my last day. Call me a quitter, loser, coward...I don't care. I know what I'm doing is wrong but I just can't anymore. I need to go home and move on.
I've already called up Lilliana and she totally understood my situation. She was pretty excited to have me back.
I then felt my bed vibrate. I searched the bed to find my phone. I looked and I saw I got a new next from Emily.
Emily<3 : I can't wait to see you tonight! We're gonna be dance buddies again :)
Me: yeahh about that I've decided to quit. I just can't stand being around Justin! It hurts to much.
Emily<3: nooo you can't leave! Does Justin know?
Me: no, and i wanna keep it that way!
Emily<3: ok well I guess I'll see you tonight before you leave! :(
I didn't even bother to text back because I noticed I got another text but from a different person.
Justin: Aubree....I'm sorry!
Me: for what?
Justin: Selena and for lying to you!!!
Me: it's ok
Justin: no, it's not ok! Stop acting like it is!
Me: well what do you want me to say Justin? I forgive you for breaking my heart?
Justin: no....
Me: I hope you and Selena are happy together Justin! I still and will always love you :*
Justin: what do you mean? What's going on!!
I didn't even bother to answer back because tears started to pour down my face.
I quickly got up and started to pack my clothes and all the junk I brought.
I can't believe im actually doing this. I'm leaving everything behind and once I'm gone I can't take it back.
I then heard a knock on my door. I walked up to it assuming it was Brooke but when I opened it I was attacked by a hug.
"AUUUBBREEEE!!!!" Emily yelled.
"OMMGGG HEYYYY!!!" I said hugging her back.
She immediately backed away when she saw my bags.
"So you really moving back?"
"Yeah" I said faking a smile.
"Why...?"she asked confused.
Me and Emily sat down on my bed as I explained everything to her.
She seems so supportive. I love her to death!
"Ummm I'm gonna go to the cafeteria...want anything?" She asked smiling.
"No....but let's keep this between us!"
"Ok!" She laughed as she started to walk away.
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Well it's time for me to leave. I've already said bye to everybody but Justin!
Scooter is taking me to the airport while everybody else is at the arena.
I know he's gonna wonder why I'm not there, but he'll just assume I wasn't feeling good or something.
We were driving and I suddenly felt a rush of guilt.
Scooter looked at me worried and asked if this is what I truly wanted to do and I just nodded my head in agreement.
When we reached the airport and I said my goodbyes to scooter....I noticed something felt wrong.
I stood there silent until I heard the doors fly open and Justin came running towards me.
I was completely shocked. How did he know I left. Who told him?
"Aubree....you can't leave me!" Justin said lacing our hands together.
"I'm sorry Justin!" I said pulling my hand away.
"You can't do this to me! I need you!!" Justin said as a tear fell from his face.
"You have Selena Justin and I know you love her and she loves you too!" I said trying to hold back my tears but wasn't doing a good job because Justin wiped my tears away with his thumb.
"But I love you more!" Justin said staring into my eyes.
"She deserves your full attention Justin! Please treat her right!" I said lightly pecking his lips for the last time.
I turned my back towards him and boarded my plane leaving him speechless.
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FanficSo there was a girl named Aubree Roberts who recently turned 18 and absolutely loved to dance. It was the only good thing in her life considering her mom died in a car crash about a year ago and her dad abandoned her when she was really young.She al...