Thoughts and Things

Madness

I always thought

that I understood

a good deal

about people.

I always picked everything apart

and could see things for what they were

and I was almost never wrong.

But now I get the feeling

that I'm only scratching the surface.

Everyone I thought I knew

is changing

and I see their other sides

through the broken glass

and I'm terribly

confused.

The people I looked up to

are nothing but snobs

and the people who were my friends

are leaving me in the dust

to rot alone.

I see people

who act like best friends when they're together

and gossip behind their backs

and the whole thing makes my head ache.

I thought I'd seen it all

but I was so very wrong.

And now

I'm almost never right

and I keep making mistakes

and everyone makes me feel worse than I was before.

And I think

that this is what

madness must be:

when your entire world

gets turned upside down

and you're never entirely sure

what's real and what's imaginary,

and what's right and what's wrong.

Every step could be a misstep

that sends you further down

and there's no way out.