Thoughts and Things

Poison

As much as I want to be alone

I know it's not good for me.

I can feel it

seeping into my bones

and it actually physically hurts

and I am left alone with my thoughts

but they are a disease.

They are an infection

and the medicine doesn't work.

They are poison

and I can't get it out of my system.

It is a disease

that I don't have the cure for.

It is the only disease

that can't be solved with quarantine.

It can't be fixed with sleep

and it can't be fixed with food

and I figure it can be cured with people

but I've been sick too long to know for sure.

This virus grows stronger with no one around

but how could I call out for help?

How could I be so selfish to make my problems theirs?

I'll just have to make do with what I've got

for the time being

and hope it doesn't get worse

and that it doesn't spread

to the people I care about.