True Monster (Karma Akabane X Reader)

Hanagasaku Ai

After weaving through different questions I got from various of my classmates of where I have been for the past three months, the glares I received from some nearby government staff, I was able to find my way back into the open air again. Everything seemed to spiral out of control within hours of my life. The flooding memories of my past kept on weighing at me as if they wanted to burn me from the inside. I double checked to make sure no one was following me before disembarking into the jungle behind the hotel.

The sun was barley peaking its head out before I started to walk aimlessly into the jungle. Various of wild flowers met my eyes, but I was to lost in my own thoughts to fully take notice of them. There were low hanging vines that I grabbed every once and a while to jump over things.

(Y/N)-sama, where are we going? A snake like voice whispered to me as I automatically recognized as Diaboli.

"I don't know." I bluntly spoken, rummaging around bushes in the jungle. "I just want to be alone for a little bit."

The voice didn't answer back at first, but eventually started to talk. What does you're class, E-3, mean to you, master?

"My class..." I thought about if for a moment. My class. My friends. My teachers. What did they all mean to me? Why was it so easy for me to trust everyone here beyond anyone else I met in my life? I ended up stubbling upon a fallen tree trunk and decided to sit on it. After sitting, I let the intoxicating smell of exotic flowers fill my senses, blocking everything else out.

"My class...is basically the reason why I decided to be different."

Different?

I nodded my head. "Different from what I was becoming. I was a cold-blooded, killing machine. It's not what I wanted to become but I felt like I had no choice in the matter. I was falling in my own depression to even realize it myself."

I bit back the tears that threaten to fall over in a raging waterfall of emotions that where bubbling up. "But thinking about what I had here... friends and love, I knew I couldn't, that I wouldn't become the monster I was creating."

The voice kept silent the whole time, probably biting back what it originally wanted to say. It was a quiet silence that fell between us. If that is what you want to protect, (Y/N)-sama. Your friends and lover, we will support you no matter what.

I smiled to myself, nodding my head lightly. Because we are you, and you are us. We are one of the same. Our goals, from now on, will be the same. Our conversation ended there, nothing else was said on the matter. But I knew now was the time of self reflection of what I've done.

I already accepted what I have done and tooken responsibility for what I have done, not even trying to deny it. There were a few questions I still wanted the answer to, but I knew that I wouldn't be able to find those answers yet anyways. But I had a feeling that brown file at home that I received from my Father contain some of those answers.