Adopted by Black Veil Brides

Chapter 36

Allyson's POV

I was up before everyone else, I held Andy's hand. "You okay." He asked.
"Yes, I'm fine don't worry."
"What are you thinking." He asked.
"When I got adopted."
"How did it make you feel." He asked me.
"I has happy, I was actually with my favorite band." I told him.
"And your dating me, even better then just seeing us, right."
"Yes, you guys help me a lot. Without you here I would be dead." I told him. "But I know I say sorry a lot but I am always making things bad but I'm sorry for how I treat you and what I do all the time, also with your room I'm very sorry."
"It's okay, you know that. You know I deal with what you do a lot and it makes me uncomfortable when you do something I really don't like. But I will still respect it and help, because I love you and what you were doing for the 2 weeks of no touring for you made me sad so please don't do that I know you still will every once in a while and you know I will help, I have told you that but you need to understand."
"Ok." I said. I was still really tired and wanted to sleep but everyone else was getting up.

Andy almost got out of my bunk but I grabbed his arm. He looked at me and said," it's 11:35 am, you shouldn't sleep Any longer."
"Please Andy, please stay next to me."
"Fine." He said laying back down. I grabbed his arm and hugged it, I wanted to sleep longer.

2 hours later

"Get up now, it's 1:30." Jake said.
"No, I'm sleeping."
"You can't sleep all day." He said.
"Fine but tomorrow I will." I told him.
"You can't were busy all day and need to wake up at 8:30."
"Why so early."
"Because." He said.

I got up and got ready. I didn't do anything really.
When I finished my hair I went back to my bunk and tried to sleep. But Jake followed me.
"No, your not sleeping."
"Why not."
"Just listen to him." Andy yelled from the couch.

I walked away from my bunk and  to the couch.

"You need to let me sleep." I told Andy sitting next to him.
"I can't let you do that, I know what you try to do."
"What do you mean." I said, I already knew just didn't want to admit.
"You want me to tell everyone then, because I will."
"Don't." I said.

Jake's POV

She hasn't been acting normal. She doesn't ever sleep this late. And yesterday when she told us she hasn't been eating for a couple days, confusing me, she doesn't ever say things like that she doesn't just say it, it takes us 5 tries to get her to say it. We talked the night before she came. She kept saying nothing was wrong  and I wasn't for sure then she told me and she still won't tell everything.  Which is normal for her but really concerns us. Andy at least can get more information than us.

"Allyson, can I talk to you please." I asked.
"Do I have too." She said.
"You have no choice." I told her.
"I don't want to."
"Listen." Andy said.
"I don't want to."
"Doesn't matter you have to, your not being normal now talk to him." He said.

She got up and walked towards me and flipped Andy off.

"Tell me what's going on."
"No."
"Tell me, I'm curious."
"Why."
"Just fucking tell me."
"You don need to know." She said irritated. I gave her the strangest look that finally made her tell me.
"You know mostly my arms and other stuff."
"What other stuff."
"I do a lot of things when no one is around."
"Like what."
"Drinking and planning stuff and I made Andy's room a mess when he came to get me but it's clean now."
"What are you planning." I asked.
"You shouldn't know."
"Does Andy know."
"N-yes."
"What are you planning."
"Run." She said.
"Don't." I told her.
"I can if I want!"
"No, and why do you keep doing stuff to yourself, we want you safe."
"I am safe with myself." She said.
"No your not, you've done a lot of things that we know that you can not be with yourself with."
"Can too."
"Andy!" I said. She almost ran but I got her. She kept moving so I then gave her to Andy when he came.

Sense we were at a stop for at least an hour Andy took her outside. She was now mad at us all. I got a lot from her, but a lot she has done before, but I didn't know she's done it at night.

"I can do what I want you don't need to tell me what I should and shouldn't do!" I heard her say.
I couldn't hear what Andy was saying but Allyson was not happy with anything and was just yelling now.
"Let go of me and-" I heard her get cut off. Andy brought her back on the bus. He was really mad at her.

Andy's POV

I took her off the bus and talked to her outside.
"Can you just talk to him nicely, and tell me what is going on!" I said.
"I can do what I want you don't need to tell me what I should and shouldn't do!" She yelled."
"You aren't going to run and I won't let you do anything bad!" I said.
She turned to run but then I grabbed her arm.
"Let go of me and-" she said as I put her back on the bus and made sure she stayed and I went back out and stood out there for a little bit.

"Andy, get back on the bus now!" Jake said.

I walked back on and looked at him. He pointed to the bathroom.

"Seriously, you didn't stop her."
"I tried." He said.
I knocked on the door for her to open but she didn't.
"She took the key." Jake told me.
"Luckily I'm good at picking locks." I told him. It took me 30 seconds to open the door and I found her looking at the wall.

When I walked in she looked at me but didn't yell. She showed me her blade, she didn't do anything but didn't let me take it. I asked to be alone with her and he left for a little bit.

"You can't do this." I said.
"Yes I can." She whispered.
"No please, Why are you doing this." I asked very worried.
"Why should I tell you." She whispered.
"I'm worried, you have never done this, your not acting like yourself."
"I'm fine." She said and got up.
I stopped her and said, "your not fine, you almost ran because we wanted to talk to you, and you were mad and yelled at me, and when I came back in you aren't yelling at me what's happening."
"Nothing."
"You keep whispering, it's not normal for you."
"Your worrying too much, it's only depression. So believe me it's ok."

I picked her up and kissed her. "Depression is nothing you can hide from me I need to know so I can help and not need to yell at you, like I did before."
"It's okay, I deserved it."
"No you didn't, we didn't know, you know when you yell at us we try not to yell back because you get very sad over it, but sometimes you need too and so I will yell."

She kissed me and asked to go to my bunk. I carried her there and laid next to her.  "I'm a bad person." She said.
I kissed her and hugged her. She knew I didn't think it. "I'm gonna sleep." She said. I nodded and fell asleep too.

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3:00 am

I woke up and found her missing. Where is she? When did she leave? I got out of bed and checked her bunk then the bathroom. She must be in there. I picked the lock and opened the door. She still didn't give the key back.
She laid on the ground very awkwardly. I seen no blood and she was breathing so that was good. She must have fallen asleep while coming back to bed or something.

I carried her back to bed and kissed her. "I was really tired and fell asleep." She said.
"I'm glad your was safe." I told her.
"Same." She said. And fell asleep.