Adopted by Black Veil Brides

Chapter 20

Allyson's POV

(2 months later)

I woke up and looked at the time it was 9:35. I got ready and walked to find Ashley and found him playing his bass. When I opened the door he looked at me. "Hey." He said. "Hey, would it be ok if I ask Jinxx if I can spend the night at his house today." "Yeah." He said. I got my phone and called him. He said it was alright and he would pick me up after he finished getting the house cleaned but I told him I would help him so he was one his way to get me.

When he arrived I grabbed my stuff and got in his car. "How have you been." He asked. "Okay." I answered back.

When we got to his house I went inside to see what needed to be done. Not a lot, just needed to fold s few blankets. "This is what you need to clean." I asked.
"Yeah, I normally have everything picked up so it's always clean but I was about to clean it but you wanted to come over."
"Ok." I said as I started to fold the blankets.

"What have you been up to." He asked.
"Nothing really." I told him.
"Oh." He said.
He helped me finish folding the blankets.

He made me some food and talked. "Can you show me what you have been working on with your guitar." "Sure." He said. He played me a couple of new songs he has been working on. They were really amazing. "Do you have anything you have been working on." He asked. "Yeah." I said and played him some songs.

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(4:00 pm)

After I while I went up stairs and started to draw. I was drawing for a couple hours. But when I finished my drawings I just sat and looked at the walk and was thinking.Then I heard a knock on the door.

"Allyson, want to watch a movie." Jinxx asked.

"Yeah." I answered back.

Before he left he asked what's wrong. I looked at him and said, "I don't know, I have been thinking for a while when I finished my drawings but I don't know what my feeling is right now."
"Ok." He said.
I walked to the door to go downstairs for the movie, he followed behind me. I was by the stairs but I stopped. "Are you ok." He asked. He seemed sounded concerned. I didn't say anything I just looked at him.

(Trigger warning)

I walked a little further but then couldn't handle myself so I ran to my room and locked it. He came after me but I locked the door right when he was about to open the door. I grabbed my blade and looked at my arms and started to make cuts. A minute went by and when I realized my scars were almost healed I hated myself and I cried. When Jinxx opened the door with his key, I remembered he was calling someone before he opened the door. I didn't want anyone to come.

He came in and cleaned my arms. Then sat next to me. I couldn't say anything, i was crying so much. When I heard Jinxx's house door open I knew there was going to be a problem. Andy and Ashley came in the room we were in. I couldn't talk still, it took me 5 minutes. When I eventually stopped crying they asked what was wrong. "I couldn't handle my thought." I told them. "That's why I stopped and waited because I was thinking of what to do."
"Oh." They said.
"It's all my fault." I told them.
"No it's not." Andy said.
I didn't want to show them my arms but Jinxx whispered in my ear that I need to tell them. "I'm sorry." I said showing my arms. They were sad, they didn't want anything like that to happen. Andy was about to talk but I stopped him. "It has nothing to do with you breaking up with me. I'm just mad at myself now for hurting my arms, they were almost healed, I'm so stupid, I shouldn't be here."

I got up and started to walk away. I heard someone come after me went in to the nearest room and locked it. It was Jinxx's room. "Shit." I heard Andy say. I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote on it. "Please don't be mad at me." I wrote and slid it under the door. He grabbed the paper an read it. "I'm not mad, but please don't do it again." He wrote. He told me he was going to get the keys but I said no. He did anyways. When he unlocked the door I tried to run out but I didn't make it. Andy stopped me.

"Please let me go." I said. But he didn't listen. He picked me up and put me on the bed. He tried asking me questions but I wouldn't answer any of them. "Let me go." I said again. He didn't listen. I got up a little so I could leave but he made me stay. I just wanted to leave. He looked at me, I could see his eyes were scared of what I would do, He's afraid I'm going to hurt myself. "Please don't." He said. I looked at him.

He didn't say anything to me but wasn't happy. He looked at my arms and touch a couple of cuts. "I'm stupid." I told him.
"No your not." He said and looked at me.
"I did this to myself and they were almost healed."
He didn't say anything he just kissed me.

"Give me your blade." He said.
"I don't have it they are in the room we were just in."
"Jinxx took that one, give me the one you have right now."
"I don't have it." I told him. He wasn't happy. He knew I had it but I wouldn't let him take it.
After the fifth try he finally got it from me. I wasn't happy. We talked for a while, and when I went to get up Andy seen my stomach.