Adopted by Black Veil Brides

Chapter 49

Andy's POV
1 week later

She's been better then she was before. She still has a hard time talking to me, and looking at me.

I get why it's hard. Being around someone you loved and now your not together anymore. It's difficult. She has to look at me everyday, she always is still listening to our music. But I can tell she is depressed sometimes.

"Allyson come talk to me." I said.
She walked next to me and sat on the couch.
"What's wrong."
"I miss being with you, but I think when we get back at home we shouldn't talk for a while. We haven't had fights for a while."
"That's true. If you ever need me or want me back or anything, I'm still here. I still love you."
"Ok, I still love you too, it's just we have been better not being together. But I promise. After a week when we get back home we can get back together." She said crying a little. I hugged her then kissed her forehead.
"Please don't get too depressed it's not like I did anything, but I understand what's wrong."
She nodded.
"Thanks for talking." I told her.
"No problem."

She got up and walked to her bunk. About after 5 minutes I got up and walked to mine.

"You are doing good. I'm proud of you."
Ashley said.
"I'm not two." I said. "And I'm always there when something's wrong. I hope I'm doing good."
"You are. Allyson wants to talk to you again."
"Ok." I said and walked to her.

"What do you need." I said laying next to her.
She tried to say it to me but kept mumbling.
"What?" I asked.
She said it again but still mumbled.
"What? Just say it, I won't judge." I said.
"I know, it's just I'm not comfortable with saying it. But I want to, because you have realized."
"Ok, so what is it."
"Well you have seen me bump into corners and other things."
"Yeah." I said.
"I know it concerns you because your always asking if I'm ok because I am tripping over am everything, but it's just from me thinking about you. We've been good how we are now. But I'm letting you know. And this is from me thinking." She showed me her arm. Wasn't to bad.
"You went back to something you quit. This can be bad. By doing one thing you did will make it seem alright, but then after a little bit other things you have done can go to mind and you can end up doing them again. I want you to stop."
"I know." She said sadly.
"Hand me the blades."

She handed me a box and I looked inside. There was like 4.

"That's all." I asked.
"Yeah." She said.

I walked to my bunk and looked at them all. They were all new ones. I wonder were she got them from? I looked at one and the corner was kind of ruined. I looked at another one and I seen she tried to put my name on it. She must have done this like yesterday. I walked back to her bunk again. Sat next to her and showed her the blade.

"How come you did this." I asked.
She ended up crying. I hugged her and than said, "why, I'm just wondering. I'm not mad."
"I've done it because it was what I was missing but things are getting better now, it's not that I was mad about you it's just the fact I missed you so I put that there."
"That's all I need, and don't so that again."
"Ok." She said. She smiled at me and I was really happy she hasn't smiled at me for a while.

I grabbed the rest of the blades from my bunk then threw them away.

"What are you doing." Jinxx asked.
"I threw some blades away."
"Why were you coming from your bunk....you better not." He said giving me a serious look.
I bursted out laughing.
"I'm serious." He said. "Now I'm worried about you."
"I'm fine, can I go now." I said.
"Just show me so I know your fine, your kinda concerning me. I know what your arguments with yourself are about."
I showed him and he looked over every spot on my arms.
"See I'm fine. They were Allyson's."
"She's doing it again."
"Yes, but I'm handling it."
"Ok." He said. "And also, you are not stupid don't get mad over yourself for not being able to remember what you were going to say to me today. I hear it all Andy." He walked away and I just laid in bed. I didn't know he knew. So every time I've had and argument he has known it.

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Allyson's POV
1 1/2 weeks later
2:30 am

We only have a half of tour left and I have been fine. I have woken up lately an then going back too sleep but tonight I can't.

Allyson- Andy is it ok if I lay with you for the rest of the night.
Andy- of corse, I won't mind
Allyson- thanks
Andy- no problem

I walked to Andy's bunk and then laid next to him. "What's wrong." he asked.
"The normal."
"Waking up in the middle of the night is not normal I have known you have done this for the past couple days."
"Now I'm mad at you for knowing, why didn't you come by me." I told him.
"Sorry."
"I'm disappointed, just let me sleep." I said. I turned away from him and slept.

After an hour I still wasn't asleep but I kept my eyes closed and acted like it. Andy put his hand on my waist and just to see what he would do I moved a little. He kept his hand there and held it there for about five minutes then asked, "what's going on." He moved his hand and made me face him.
"Nothing!"
"I know there is."
"No there  isn't, I shouldn't have asked to do this!" I said getting up, He realized I was going to go to the bathroom. He followed me.

"Don't follow!" I said.
He continued to and opened the door, "what did I say!" I said.
"I'm not letting you do this. Listen-"
"I'm not listening! We were doing fine and I decided to try something and it doesn't work out! This is why I said, we can't be together! I'll be okay and then after a simple question I get mad! It's my fault, I want to be with you I thought it was going to work but it didn't!" I said. "I need to change if we were going to go out again. Otherwise I'm mad, and you don't know what to do-"
He kissed me. I wasn't expecting it but he didn't want it to be romantic, but just to quiet me. I can tell.
"You don't need to change, I already know what to do when your not to happy."
"I don't know...."
"Please, try it again. It will be ok. I have handled you for a long time. You have done worse before trust me."
"Fine." I sighed. "last time trying out out relationship again for the third time."

He smiled and picked me up. And I looked at him. "What ever is in your head, be careful. I don't know what has been going on."
"I know." He said laying me on his bed and kissed me.