Adopted by Black Veil Brides

Chapter 38

Andy's POV
Next day

I look beside me and Allyson was sleeping next to me. She couldn't do anything sense she was still in the hospital. Maybe I should do something that will make her listen and should look at her phone before she goes on it. I know her password, she doesn't know that though, but it's really easy, it is my name.

I grabbed her phone and looked at it, there was nothing on there. All her apps were gone and there was nothing but her music and phone numbers.
"What are you doing?" She asked.
"Looking at your phone."
"I can see that, but what are you doing on it."
"Looking for the mean people, but seems like you deleted everything."
"How do you know my password?"
"It's easy the whole band knows." I told her.
"Did I say it when I drank or something."
"No, you never drink around anyone." I told her.
"Are you mad about that." She asked.
"I don't know, but now that there are no apps right now will you stop."
"Who knows it depends on how I feel."

I kissed her and the doctor came in.
"Hey." He said.
"Hey."
"Well, they say you can go check out and go home, well for you touring."
"Thanks." I told him.
"No problem, have a nice time." He said and left.

I gave her some clothes and then waited for her to get dressed. She went to the bathroom and changed. When I waited I realized it was taking longer then I thought it would. I knocked on the door and walked in. She was sitting on the floor crying.
I got her to her feet than gave her a hug.
"I've been very stupid Andy, I have been very stupid." She said to me.
"Doesn't mean you need to say that about yourself, I don't think you are, it's just you have been having different thoughts when your not yourself."
"I'm never myself Andy."
"Sometimes you are, and when you are your fine and okay, but when your not, you let yourself get to you and bring you down. Now if you want to get back to touring we should go the guys would really want to see you right now."
She nodded and we walked out and went to the desk and checked out.

"We can go." I told them.
They all jumped up and gave Allyson a hug.
"See they love you also." I told her.
"Yeah, I don't normally think of it." She said. We all stared at her for a minute, we never knew she had that kind of way of thinking.
"Sorry." She said. She grabbed my hand and walked to the bus. They followed us and when we all got on and left to go back to touring, we all sat in silence thinking and texting in a group chat of why she just said that .
'I'm really sorry guys, I don't want you to worry so much about me.' She texted us.
'You should be being better to yourself but you just made us unhappy about that.' Jake said.
'When I'm happy I think of you guys liking me but when I am being down I kind of go away from it.'
'I'm sorry to say but we don't see you happy much so it's really concerning, so will you please try to be a little more happy like when we first got you.' I texted.
She got up and said, "you can't make me choose my attitude so I can stay this way if I want! And I was happy for a while till things got out of control and I didn't tell you!" We looked at her again and made her uncomfortable.
"Shit!" She said.
"You are confessing everything now. What's happening to you. But with these facts already you should just tell everything."
"No! I don't want to, and no one will get information! I won't tell!" She said and got to her bunk.

"You should go talk to her." Jake said.
"I know she won't tell me, she already said. And she was looking at me, she won't tell." I told him. "We should just let her be for now, she's been having a rough time."
"Ok." He said.
He grabbed his guitar and just practiced what he has been working on.

Jake's POV

I didn't know what to do so I just got my guitar. I played for a little bit. 'Can you please come here.' Allyson texted me.
I texted, 'Ok.'
'Can you bring your guitar.'
'Sure.' I said and walked to her.

"Where are you going." Andy asked.
"I'll be back." I said.

I gave her the guitar, she didn't have to put it into a different tune, that's why she might have wanted to play it to show me something. It sounded familiar but I let her play. I remember it from when she played with us, it was that solo she made. When she was done I asked her about it.
"Is that a new song you made with that solo you played for us."
"Yes" she said.
"It's very good." I said. "But will you please tell me what's wrong."
"That's why I needed the guitar." She said to me.
"You want to write about it." I asked.
She nodded.
"Ok, well, um...we will be going to be practicing in a little bit. After the show tomorrow do you want to go." I asked.
"Yes." She said.
"You need to get your ideas of what it is so we can understand what it needs to be about."
"Ok." She said.

She gave the guitar back to me, so she could get out of her bunk, then put it away. She came back and said, "Thanks."
I nodded and gave her a hug. She just went and read.

2 hours later

Allyson still never came back out, to talk. Everyone else went to some bar, Andy said he would stay but I said I would and told him what Allyson told me, I wanted to make sure Allyson was ok. I walked to her bunk and heard her crying.

"What's wrong." I asked.
"My dream, it was about you guys and sense I annoyed you with what I have been doing you wouldn't help me with anything, can you please help, please." She said crying.
"Of course, that's what I want to do. Do you want to work on the song."
"Yeah." She said.

I got pen and paper and have her list ideas.
(The list she made)

-fear of people leaving

-people say mean things online

-can't handle this any longer

She had a couple ideas but the last could be something in the song but it's not really much of something to write about.
"I can't do this." She said.
"Yes you can, it will explain more to us then you can tell us. I understand you want to do this but your scared to write the song and have us all know what it's about. It's fine, do you want to wait till tomorrow then." I asked.
"Yeah." She said.

She laid down, and I started to walk away.
"You need to stay, I need you." She said.
I laid next to her. Then waited for her to sleep. She wouldn't fall asleep.

"You okay." I asked.
"No." She said, and started to kiss me.

Allyson's POV

I couldn't stand what has been going on. I mean like I just started kissing Jake and I know I shouldn't but I think he would find out soon because I can't tell him and I am not really meaning to do this. It's not normal for me to do this.

I kissed him a couple more times.
He tried to get me to stop but I couldn't. I kissed him the last couple times a little longer then heard Andy say, "Allyson get over here now!"
I got out of my bunk.
"No!" I said. I tried to run past Andy but he grabbed me and took me out side.
"I'm disappointed, you are not listening to anything! You are always trying to run, your making things really difficult! Why won't you listen!"
"Your not getting the truth, no one will!"
"Why do you lie all the time!"
"What! Nothing says I can't!"

He walked me to a place that was quiet and no people and away from the bus.
"I'm told you in not telling the truth!"
He didn't say anything but he kissed me. I looked at him then ran. He didn't follow me. He probably doesn't care.