Between The Moons [BTS ~ Namjoon] [COMPLETE]

Chapter Nineteen

It was the first full moon that I could be free. Free for people to see my eyes purple all the time,  without having control over them. The first time that I didn't have to wake up before the moon shone in the night sky.

I felt different this time.

Before,  I would just be the same. The only thing different,  was the colour of my eyes during the full moon. But now,  I felt more alive. Which I suppose was pretty contradictory,  considering most thought we were dead. Almost dead,  but not fully.

As I laid in my bed,  I could feel the adrenaline rushing through my veins,  making me want to run. To run through the trees,  for miles constantly. I knew I couldn't,  not out in the trees anyway.

I turned over in my bed,  expecting to find Namjoon laying next to me. But,  the bed was empty. I couldn't help but feel cold without Namjoon next to me. Even though I had spent 180 years without sharing a bed,  I'd gotten used to it. Having his arms wrapped around me as I slept,  or at least tried to. His warm breath against my skin as he slept.

Sealing a bond wasn't something to be taken lightly. Having a bond in the first place was strong enough,  forcing two people together and making them fall for eachother. But sealing it meant that there was no way of breaking away from eachother, not without causing extreme pain to both people involved.

I'd always wondered why we had a bond. It's not like humans did,  I mean they fell in love,  but I don't know if it was as strong as a bond. But then again,  maybe it was there own form of bonding, that they had some sort of decision over. Maybe not. I would like to think that maybe it was the same. Humans always spoke of heartbreak,  but I don't think it was as strong and painful. Separating vampires who have bonded,  can result in death. Only those whose bonds were the strongest resulted in death.

I'm scared that maybe one day. One day soon,  something would happen. Nothing was certain, but right now,  things were even more uncertain and that scared me. I didn't like to feel scared,  all my life I was expected to be scared of people finding out about me. But now they knew,  that wasn't what I was scared of anymore. I'm not entirely sure what I am scared of,  but I know that I just am.

I threw the covers off of me revealing my bare legs. I walked over to the mirror to make sure my hair didn't look too crazy. Staring at my eyes,  I smiled. The bright purple glowed from them,  brightly. Brighter than usual. I smiled at my reflection slightly before moving my hair over to one side and placing it behind my ear. I was wearing shorts and a t-shirt; I don't think people will particularly care what I look like.

I walked over to the side of the door and put on a pair of plain black trainers before leaving my room. I didn't know where to go first,  so I decided that the best place to go was down to the gym. I wasn't sure what time it was,  but at least one of the boys were bound to be down there.

As I ran down the stairs and out of the main building,  towards the sports area,  I recieved strange stares,  but I didn't care. I just wanted to run, and run,  and run,  until I couldn't run any longer. But I thought I'd but my energy into something more productive,  like looking for Namjoon.

Whilst running from one building to another,  I stared up into the sky and admired the giant full moon shining down onto the ground. I noticed the stars shine brightly,  glistening in the dark night time sky. I bowed down slightly to the sky as I stopped for a moment to look at it. I remembered what my mother had said to me in the letter she left before she died,  saying how she would be up in the sky amongst the stars along with my father. I believed her,  I wanted to think that they were up there looking down on me.

I stopped staring and smiled, then began to run again. I really must have been awake early,  there was very little people around and even then,  they didn't look very awake. I noticed the lights were off inside the sports building,  but the doors were open.