A Ninja Heart (Naruto Fanfic,Completed)

Another year of pain

She had already died one time.. He knew that,but then why was it even harder to accept it now? Why couldn't he get over the fact that..she was dead? 

He already knew the answer far too well. He didn't want to admit it,but he knew the answer better than anyone. 

Sasuke had killed her. 

When she was about to touch his daughter,their daughter,he hadn't actually thought about not hurting her to get her away from Mikoto. Sasuke had just acted,knowing that he'd even use Narumi as a human shield to protect that baby. 

But still..He had now lost the love of his life,the only one he had loved more than himself. The one who truly had made him happy,and the one who gave him a legacy. 

And now she was gone..All because he had killed her. 

He could taste the blood on her lips when he kissed her one last time,the smell of her hair and could still hear her musical voice in his head. 

"It wasn't your fault." Shikamaru said as he stood beside Narumi's graveyard. 

It has now been a year ever since she died,ever since Sasuke killed the only woman he had ever loved more than anything. So Shikamaru could not simply say it wasn't Sasuke's fault when it clearly was.

"I killed her." Sasuke said blankly. 

"You did it because she was in pain,and she almost killed your daughter. You don't regret that,do you?" Sometimes,at nights,Sasuke would think about the night he had killed Narumi. 

Did he regret it? Would he have changed his mind? 

Sasuke got up as he had crouched,and looked at Shikamaru with a half smile. 

A year ago,Sasuke left the village and left his daughter in the hands of his best friend,her uncle. He could not take care of a child of whose mother he had killed.. He wasn't ready to face someone who looked exactly like her. 

He regretted so much by just seeing his very own daughter. 

"How is he?" Sasuke asked his friend,whom shrugged. 

"He's holding up.." Shikamaru said and smirked. "He's nervous." 

"It's his wedding day." Sasuke said with a smile as he closed his eyes. "He should be." They both laughed.

Who would've thought that Naruto would ever get married? Or have children for that fact!

"How's Boruto?"  Sasuke asked as the two of them walked away from the courtyard.

"Well,he's still a little baby.. But he looks just like Naruto." Of course! Sasuke couldn't imagine Naruto having a kid.. 

Sasuke paused for a bit and quietly asked. "How is she?" Shikamaru looked at Sasuke,long and hard... 

"She can now walk." She can walk... It's been a year,and she can already walk? Time flies by very fast,and seems she's got good legs and strength,just like her mother. Sasuke smiled. He wasn't sad that he wouldn't  get to see her first steps,considering that he was very happy to just hear about it. 

"She knows how to say papa and mama." And yet,she's grown up to know that Naruto is her father and Hinata her mother. 

That hurt,only a little.. Sasuke hated the fact that Mikoto would grow up knowing Naruto as her father. It hurt,but it was better than getting her hurt. It's better to think that Mikoto is Naruto's daughter rather than Sasuke's and Narumi's where she would be in great danger. 

"You know," Shikamaru said and laughed a little. "We all thought she'd be blonde,like her mother.."

"She isn't?"

"Black like yours. She may have Narumi's appearance,but she will most likely be like you." 

"I hope not-"

"That's not a bad thing,Sasuke." What? How is that not a bad thing?  

They talked for a while,and walked through the village. Cause after all,being at his friends wedding day was the least he could do.. And he wanted to see Mikoto so very badly. It had now become a priority to them all to keep the fact hidden that Sasuke is her father. 

The story was that Sasuke's child died during Narumi giving birth to her,and lucky them,they had not announced that Narumi and Sasuke's child was healthy and saved. Only few knew. 

At last,they reached the Hokage's office. 

Kakashi was still Hokage,and to Sasuke's surprise,he'd done very well. Sasuke knew that Kakashi hadn't done well on Narumi's death as well. But he hadn't talked to Sasuke.. Not one bit. 

Perhaps it was time. 

Sasuke knocked on the door,Shikamaru right behind him,and he heard Kakashi welcoming them inside. And as soon as Kakashi saw Sasuke's face,his face somehow lit up to his surprise. 

Shikamaru had left them alone,knowing they'd want to talk,and Sasuke didn't know if he should smile or just..be cool. 

But Kakashi still seemed..hurt. 

In front of him on the table was a picture of her. It hurt Sasuke to see her face after another year.. All he kept from her was that piece of her shirt that slightly had been ripped off when a shinobi had stabbed her when she was pregnant. 

That's all he had. 

And there Kakashi was,looking sad as ever,torturing himself with a picture of Narumi. 

"I remember when she was younger," Kakashi said,a smile visible on his eyes. "She had such energy.. So clumsy,yet determined,always the protector." Sasuke didn't want to listen. 

He hated talking about her. He absolutely hated it. Her name hurt his heart,the thought of her face made him want to cry every time.. Her voice echoing in his head made him wish he'd never met her. 

But without her,he'd be nothing. 

"You gave her a great life,Sasuke."

"Is that sarcasm?"

"No." Kakashi said,still looking at the picture. "You gave her a better life than I ever could. You loved her,and you were always by her side,despite her having Mikoto,you let her make her decision and yet you were to protective-" Before Kakashi could finish his sentence there was a knock on the door. 

A familiar voice. 

"Kakashi! You need to hurry!" The door opened and standing there was Sakura and Izuka..

In Sakura's arms was a baby... 

Blue eyes,and a little black brownish hair,fair skin..whiskers. 

"Sasuke." Sakura breathed out,just as Sasuke's eyes met his very own..

His very own daughter's eyes. 

For some reason,despite her being just one year old,she kept her look on Sasuke's. And that moment was Sasuke's weakest moment. 

For minutes he felt like his whole world was coming to pieces again,but at the same time it was like a stone dropping right on his heart. It was all so weird and so... 

"Papa." 

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Ever since Sasuke visited Mikoto once every year. He felt like if he visited her too much at such a young age,she would come too close to him,and he was very weak when around his daughter. 

She had her mothers eyes,and because she was his daughter,he would never actually leave her. 

He'd be protecting her by not being too attached to her,cause once they knew she was his daughter,they'd go after her. 

And when she's old enough... 

That's when Sasuke would return.