Just cuts.. ✔️

14 | Gone?

I've never felt like I've had a real friend. No ones ever been there for me, I've always been that loner girl who hides in the corner crying until the day is over.
But recently it's been different. I've meet someone who made my life so much better. He's helped me a lot without even realising it. Ed been like a brother to me ever since I met him.

He knows more about me than I know about myself. I never thought I'll open up to anyone since my dad passed away. But when I meet Ed and he told me he's story and he helped me I knew I would trust him.

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Ed and I were both starving but we didn't have any food so I offered to go out and buy some food at the shop and come back.

As I was walking along the streets a strong, cold breeze hit me as I quickly pulled my scarf around me trying to keep myself warm.
I kept walking as my brown boots splashed in the puddles, splashing up onto my jeans.

I smiled to myself as I started skipping down the stairs as requiring weird stares from strangers passing by. For the first time in my life Ive actually been happy. No worries. No pain. Just me and Ed having fun and freedom.

I finally reached the shop where the automatic doors opened for me before I went head first into them.
I got everything we needed then went to buy for everything that I got.

"Would you like a bag?" The jolly cashier asked me.

"Yes please." I smiled.

***

"Can I have two coffees please?" I asked.

I decided since it was a cold day that I'll go and buy coffee for me and Ed before heading back to the library.

"Thank you." I took the coffees off the lady and started making my way out the door but before I could reach it a strong grip grabbed my shoulder and I was turned immediately around.
I was face to face with a monster. My step dad.

"Where the hell have you been!?" He's deep voice sent shivers down my spine.
I took a deep breath as I stared him in his eyes.
"Answer me!!" He pulled me out of the coffee shop and into the street.

"Ow! Let go of me!" I pushed away as my face meet the ground, spilling all the coffee around me.

"Your coming home with me! You ungrateful twat! Just running away like that!" He shouted then pulling me up of the ground.

"No I'm not! I don't need you, I've got my own life without you." I pushed him away from me as I ran for my life.

"HEY! STOP!" He shouted after me as he followed close behind.

I ran as fast as I could. I needed to get to the library and hide in there. I needed to get to ed.
I ran and took all the short cuts I could think of. I didn't want to go back to my horrible life. I just can't take it. I didn't want to go down the dark hole I was once down.

I finally saw the library in the distance but Jim wasn't far behind me. I sprinted towards the old library and opened the doors and slammed them down. I quickly grabbed a chair and put it against the door.

"Ed? EDDD?" I shouted looking around the empty library.
I started breathing heavy trying to catch my breath back. I ran around like a mad person searching for Ed. He told me he'll wait for me to come back. "EDDDDDD!" I shouted at the top of my voice. But there was no answer. He was no where to be seen.

My eyes widen as reality hit me. Life doesn't want me to be happy. Ed left me. He's gone. My breathing got louder as I tried to contend my tears that were ready to come pouring out.
I heard a loud noise coming from the door as Jim tried he's hardest to open the door.

I knew it was too good to be true. He's gone. He left me. Alone. He was the only person I've ever opened up to, now he's gone. Probably because he hates me and doesn't want to see my face ever again. But what happens if he tells someone? My life would be ruined.... well more than it's already is.

"Who the hell are you shouting at!" I looked up to see that Jim managed to get he's way in here.
I looked at him with tear filled eyes.
"Get the hell up!" He pulled me up and then started dragging me out the door. I quickly grabbed my bag on the way out the door. I gave up fighting with him. Might as well go back to the hell hole I call home. Nothing's ever going to change.

***

When we finally got home I ignored all the questions I was hit with when I walked through the doors.
I immediately walked up the tall stairs up to my room and slammed the door. My whole life was falling apart again. I dropped to the floor emotionless. I didn't cry nor did I show any emotions. I just lay there... thinking.

Why Ed? Why did you do this? He knows that I can't survive on my own, my mind is my worst enemy that I can't get rid of. I needed help! Someone to help me to stop thinking like! But the day that'll happen is the day that pigs fly.

I just guess this is my density. Density to always be like this. No friends. No life.

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Sorry if this is shite! I kinda have writers block rn but I don't want to leave it too long before I get back writing bc then I'll never write it again. But I'll try!

Thanks for everyone who's reading this! ❤