Just cuts.. ✔️

1 | Family life?

Pls read a/n first.

The sun was beaming through my window and shinning on my face. I groan and turn around in my bed and cover my face from the outside world. It was a bright sunny morning, but it wasn't in my world. Deep down inside It was dull and glomming.

I slowly turn my legs to the side of my bed to see cuts all over them. I sigh.

"It's just my cat." I told myself as I got up and walked towards the bathroom. I washed my face at my stink... for a good 5 minutes I stood at the stink looking into the mirror and staring straight into my own eyes, just wondering about life.

'What is life? We're all just waiting to die.'

"Get out of the fuckin bathroom!" My step-dad banged on the door.

"I'll be out now." I said then looking down at my bare legs.

I was wearing shorts, so my cuts were invisible. I quickly grab a towel and wrap it around me like I'm just out of the shower. I slowly opened the door to see my step dad standing at the stairs. When he wasn't looking I made a runner for it to my room. I got in my room and immediately locked my door.

I looked around my room...something's missing in my life...

I always felt alone. Like no one's ever cared about me. The only person who has... well was my dad... but I can't talk to him anymore... unless I join him.

I walked around to my wardrobe and I got a plain grey lose top and jeans and threw them on. I put my hair up in a high pony tail. I grabbed my trainers and pulled them on. I searched through my wardrobe again until I found my giant baggy hoodie that I always wear. I put it over my head. It went down passed my butt. I looked in my full-length mirror.

"I'm a mess but I can hide it." I said to myself.

"Penny open this door now!" I froze when I heard my step dads voice.

I hesitated to open the door, but I knew If didn't there would be must more punishment than what was ahead of me. I unlocked the door and he came storming into my room.

"What you think you doing, brat!" He shouted at me.

"W-wha-"

"I'm sick of you! Thinking you own the place."

"Are you drunk again..." I said realising what was happening.

"Shut up! Your useless bitch." He grabbed my hair and pushed my head towards the wall.

My head hit off the wall super hard!

"Jim, stop! Your dru-" he straight up punches me in the face.

I would never call him dad. He will always be Jim to me. My dad died because of a car accident and I will never ever replace him!

He didn't take any pity on me. He was an awful person! But I was used to it by now. I get a lot of abuse from him.

After a lot of abuse from him he finally left me alone in my room. I fell straight on the ground and just broke down. I couldn't control it. I had to left it all out. It's very hard to keep all my emotions in, I try and do it every day but at the end of the day I just break. I sat in my room sobbing.

It's like being trapped in a box with no escape. Just people laughing at you, making fun of you and giving abuse to you. There's no way out.

After I finished crying I fixed my hair. I took it down and then tried hiding my face with my hair. There was bruise and some cuts on my face, so I grabbed my concealer and hide everything from everyone.

I then went down stairs quietly without my parents hearing me. I walked out the front door without being noticed. lucky.

I started to make my way towards the bus stop. I pulled my hood up to hide my face from everyone. I knew there would be loads of people at the bus stop and I really didn't want anyone to see me or talk to me.

When I got there, I went to the back of the crowd, hoping no one will see me. I stood there tapping my foot repeatedly. I was trying my hardest no to just break down right now and embarrass myself.

"LUARA!" Someone grabbed me from behind.

I looked up and saw a tall dark hair boy with bright green eyes. He had feckless going across his nose.

"Oh sorry. I thought you were someone else." He awkwardly said with a British accent.

"It's fine." I said studying he's face.

"I'm Craig by the way." He held out His hand.

"Penny." I shook he's hand.

"Nice to meet you, penny. I hope to see you around." He said as the bus pulled up.

"Same to you." I really didn't want to see him again. I'm so awkward in social situations.

Everyone started crowding around the bus door and I started to panic as I was getting squished between everyone.

I couldn't breathe or even see where I was going. Everyone was just pushing to get on the bus.

'I'll get the next one.' I said to myself as I tried escaping the crowd.

I was breathing heavy and pushing pass people. I then got knocked over by a stranger. I closed my eyes and prepared to hit the ground... but I never did.

I opened my eyes to see I was caught by Craig.

"You alright?" He said.

"Yea I'm fine..." I was about to walk away.

"You go to Hamwest?" (Random name) I turned around and looked at him.

"Yea?" I said confused.

"Same, I've seen you there before." He smiled.

"Ok, see you around then." I quickly walked away as the other bus arrived.

I didn't want to talk to anyone. I'm such an anti-social person.

I got on the bus and calmed myself down. I put my headphones in and started listening to music until I got to school.

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Thanks to anyone who read this. I really didn't know if I should upload it or not. It's going to be quite depressing but I'm going to see what you think. (This been on private for a long time now)

Depression is no joke.

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Grammar is Edited a bit: 26/05/18