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28 | Moving On In Life

*5 Months Later*

I finally felt like I'm moving on in life. Life is just starting for me. For so many years it's been on pause for me as all I could feel was pain. Nothing could make me happy anymore but FINALLY I can feel again without causing myself pain and regret.

Mum divorced Jim when she found out what he did to me. There was no more abuse. My mum was finally going back to her old self as we don't have any alcohol in the house anymore to stop her drinking.
Craig and Ed are helping me a lot but no one trusts me with sharp items yet... and I think it might take awhile till they do again..

The thoughts in my head are slowly going away but will always come up when I don't want them too.

Life is just so much better now.

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Life am I right? School? Arghh! I really hate school but I guess it's because I don't like the work and exams but Craig makes it a lot better with his horrible jokes. Oh god why didn't I let him into my life sooner? I love this fool so much.

I walked out of school with my folder in my arms while Craig ran up behind me. I heard his heavy footsteps running towards me as a smirk appeared on my face.

"Wouldn't kill you to wait!?" He laughed out of breathe.

"Yea it would. There was a dinosaur and I had to run or it'll kill me." I tried to keep a straight face as I spoke.

"OHHH that was Jeff. He's my pet Dino, sorry about that." He tried keeping a serious tone but when I looked at him he busted out laughing. 

We both walked home from school everyday now since we don't live far from each other. When we got to my house we stopped and spoke for a few minutes before going our own ways.

"So you wanna do something this weekend?" I asked remembering today was Friday. 

"Aw sorry can't, got something planned." Craig smiled to myself thinking of what he was doing this weekend.

"Ah okay, what you doing?" I asked getting noisy.

"Oh nothing special.." He lied. He's such a bad liar. When he lies, he tries and makes no eye contact with you and awkwardly plays with his hands.

"C'mon we both know you're lying." I gave him the face I do to make him feel guilty when I want him to tell me something.

"Fine whatever." Craig sighed as he stuffed his hands in his pocket. "I've been seeing this girl for awhile now and we have a date I w- "

"WHAT AND YOU DIDN'T THINK TO TELL ME!?" I said "WOW I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS....SO WHO IS SHE!? TELLLL." My whole head was just shouting at me all these questions.

"Wow... Calm your head. I wasn't going to say anything until it was official. I'm going to ask her tomorrow night to be my girlfriend." I imminently jumped on him.

"YAY!!!" I shouted as I hugged him.

"wow... you're more excited than me." He laughed. "And her name is Amy." 

My face dropped as I froze and stared at him. "Oh Amy Taylor?" I asked confused.

"Yea, you know her?" He asked surpised.

"Nah." I started walking away towards my house. "Byeee." I waved. "Of course it's her." I mumbled to myself.

"Byee." I shut the door as I went upstairs without saying anything to my mum.

I'm truly happy for Craig but something inside me isn't... I'm just jealous... that's it.

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The next day I got up and changed into my white top, black jeans with my leather jacket. It was just me and Ed today since Craig couldn't come. I didn't sleep well last night because my brain was on all night just thinking. I don't know why... I sometimes wish my brain will turn off. 

I ran down the stairs making sure not to fall... because the amounts of times that has happened is unbelievable.

I put bread in the toaster, as I poured myself a glass of water and stared out the window watching the birds fly freely without any worries. 

"Morning honey." My mum walked into the kitchen to get cereal.

"Morning mum." I smiled happily. "I'm going out with Ed if that's fine."

"Wow Honey!!! I knew it."

"WHAT NOOOO." I realised what I said.

"I'm so happy for you."

"MUM NOOO! I'M NOT DATING HIM." I shouted. "I'm leaving the house to hang out with him." I said thinking over what I said before saying it.

"Oh that's a pity." She sighed.

"We're FRIENDSS." I playfully rolled my eyes as my toast popped. 

I ate my delicious breakfast then put on my boats , my backpack and left to meet Ed.
I really don't know what we're going to do but we're probably hang at his and go around some shops. 

I walked down the streets to Ed's apartment. We finally got a good job that pays well so he's getting back on his feet and owns his own place now instead of an old abandoned library. It was a sunny day as the sun beamed down onto the street causing shadows of trees and objects. I don't know why I wear a leather jacket... It's never this warm. Jeez. 

Meanwhile I finally got to his apartment and pressed the buzzer and waited for an response.

"Hello?" A deep and tired voice said through the speaker.

"For flip sake, are you only up?" I replied.  

"Shut up or you're not coming in."

"Fine whatever, let me in." He hung up as the door opened. 

I walked up loads of tall stairs that lead up to Ed's. I really hate this part when coming to his. I knocked on his door out of breathe as a tall, messy hair man appeared front of me. He was wearing a baggy tank top and tartan bottoms. 

"Afternoon sleepy head." I laughed as I walked in. "Why you up so late?" I looked around me seeing his apartment a mess. "Go get changed and I'll tidy some of this." 

"Nah don't bother it'll get a mess later anyway." He smirked as he walked to his bedroom to get changed.

I tidied a bit because I couldn't take it any longer. Ed got changed into black jeans, a band top and a grey jacket.

"So want are we doing today?" Ed asked as he walked out.

"I don't know, Wanna look over shops?" I asked.

"Only if we get food." 

"Duh that's the reason why we're going." I laughed while linking arms with Ed and skipping out.

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Where was I going with this chapter? Idek. 

Craig is dating?

5 months of improvement? 

Thanks for reading <3