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10 | Dancing fixes Everything

I wake up to being cuddled up on the sofa with a blanket wrapped around me. I slowly sat up and looked around. I saw Ed at the other end of the library sorting things out. I smiled to myself remembering I have someone to experience this with.
I got up from the sofa and walked down to ed.

"Morning." I yawned.

"Morning sleepy head." He laughed.
"Wanna do something today?"

"Yea sure. What to you have in mind?" I asked.

"Umm I don't know. The beach? I know a small one with a jetty and it's beside an amusement park." He smiled as he grabbed a jacket.

"Oh my god! Yes! That'll be amazing. But can we get food first?" My stomach growled when I mention food.

"Yea sure, there's food in the fridge." I titled my head in confusion.

"What fridge?"

"Oh it's in the staff only part over there." He pointed over to a door that i never really noticed.

"Ohhhhh." I laughed as I walked over.

I opened the door to reveal a quite small, dark room with two small sofa in the corners, there was benches at both sides of the fridge with a small table in the middle with two chairs.

I walked over to the fridge and opened it. A light immediately turned on and lit up the room. There wasn't a lot of food but I didn't expect to be a lot though as Ed is leaving in an abandoned library. I took a pack of crisps and started eating it as I walked out.

Ed was waiting at the door for me.

"Ready?" He had put on a beanie with pieces of his hair out. He was wearing a baggy army green jacket with a white top and ripped jeans.

"Yea in a minute. I need to just comb my hair, put trainers and jacket on." I said running over to my bag. I grabbed my comb and quickly combed through my hair, I tied my laces on my trainers then threw on my burgundy hoodie on.

"Ready now!" I shouted as I ran to him.

We walked for a bit in the sunny day. Just talking, I find it really easy to make conversation with Ed. Like it just flows and I don't have to worry about what I'm going to say.

"So where is this beach?" I asked Ed.

"It's not far now. Just a bit up this road." He looked straight ahead.

"Yay!!! I HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE BEACH IN YEARS!!!" I hit Ed excitedly.

"Wow! Calm down!" He laughed.

"ARGH! I DON'T KNOW WHY IM SO EXCITED ALL OF AN SUDDEN!" I shouted.

"Shhh, we're getting weird looks." He looked around wide eyed.

We finally got to the beach. It was a beautiful day for the beach. It wasn't a hot day but it wasn't too cold but the sun was shiny brightly. We sat on the jetty with our bare feet dangling into the cold relaxing water. We sat in silence. Not an awkward silence but a comfortable one.
  The amusement park was just beside us blasting music out of the speakers. It was pretty loud and distracting but we didn't really mind it. We still found it relaxing with the music in the background.

"Have you ever just felt like shit. And you can't think positive only negative?" Ed asked me as he splashed his feet in the water.

"Every day..." I shyly said.
I noticed Ed's head slowly turning and looking at me. His eyes filled with confusion and worry.
"Sorry. I get it a lot. Why you ask?"

"Because.... I never really had the problem with it before but when you fell asleep last night I just really down." He quietly said.

"Oh my god! That's probably my problem! I give off negative vibes all the time! I'm so sorry, don't be down. Your an amazing person, you've made me feel a lot happier since I've met you." I felt so bad. I know what's it like.

"No it wasn't you. And it was just one time and I think it's because I'm just scared with getting close to people but you seem really nice and a great person." He smiled sweetly.

"Aw don't be sacred! We're can get through all this together!" I stayed positive.

"Can I ask, what do you mean you feel it everyday?"

"Well..." I closed my eyes tightly. Say or not to say? Is the question.

"Oh it's nothing."

"Come on. You can trust me?" He said in a questioning tune.

"Well... I stuffer from depression... I feel like everyone hates me, no one cares and I should just leave the world so everyone will be happier without me." I quietly said.

He looked shock at what i said. I don't think he expected me to be just so say it like that.

"Penny.. I didn't know. I'll help you in any way I ca-"

"There's things I regret. Not all my harm is caused by my step-Dad." I sighed. I lifted my sleeve up a bit to see my cuts. I felt a hand go over my cuts.

"Please... all I say is please don't do it again. You have an amazing personality and a great life to live for."

"Thanks but can we stop talking about this?" I asked. I hated this subject I just wanted to stop talking. I put the mood down so much.

"Yea sure." He said as a song blasted out loud. It was problem by Ariana Grande.
"Oh my god!" Ed said in a girlish voice.

He stood up and stared dancing to get like mad.

"Ed!" I laughed so loud.

"Come on!" He grabbed my hand and pulled me up on my feet.
"DANCE!" He shouted.

I smirked and started joining in with him. Maybe this can brighten the mood?

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Ffs! This is probs one of the worse chapters I could just feel like this was a bad chapter. I kept getting distracted while watching this (blame scooby doo for that) cba proof reading etc so feel free to mistake my grammar mistakes EXCEPT MY FRIENDS IRL! You's don't allow! You's already do it too much.

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