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19 | Guess Who's Back?

I woke up in a strange bed. I looked around me for clues and the first thing I saw was a sleeping Craig laying on the floor on a spare mattress. I smiled to myself remembering that Craig forced me to sleep in his bed while he slept on the ground.

I heard turning from where Craig was. I quickly sat up and looked down to see Craig laying awake on his phone.

"Hey." I said sleepy, my voice was almost in a whisper.

"Oh morning." He sat up staring at me.
"You sleep ok?"

"Yea I slept fine. Thanks, how about you? Sorry I took your bed." I awkwardly said as I stood up. I looked down to remember that I was wearing a baggy band top of Craig's and his sisters old shorts.

"Yea I slept fine plus I made you take my bed." He laughed as he got out of bed and joined me on mine. He looked at me as I sat back down on the bed.
"You ok?" He tilted his head.

"Yea I guess...." I'm freaking out inside right now! I actually told another human being. I'm in someone else's house. Scared. I never returned last night what did Jim think?

*****

After a while was just talking to Craig I grew closer to him. But I couldn't stay there for a day and just talked I had to go home.

Craig tried to make me stay as he didn't want me to go back to my house if Jim was there but I told him I could handle it and I'll be fine. It took a lot of convincing and Craig finally let me go home but he wanted to walk me what I didn't want. I wanted a peaceful walk by myself so that's what I did.

I started walking home kicking the water as I walked on the footpath. I got to the old library I sent a couple weeks in. I sighed as my feet guided me towards it. I don't know why but I just wanted to go in it and looked about... I just wanted to stay there again.

As I walked in the smell of dust and old books hit my face. I don't know how I spent that long living in here. It was so dusty. I looked around the small library but at the corner of my eye I saw something. I turned around to see a small black bag laying there with a coat laying on top of it. That wasn't there when I left. Someone in here.

I started tip toeing about as I listened. There was noises coming from the sofas where I use to sleep. I creeped around the corner to see a tall figure sitting there..... looking at his hands.
It couldn't be.... right?

"E-ed?" I stuttered.

He immediately shot up when he hear my voice speaking. His whole face was white with bags under his eyes, his dirty blonde hair a messy as it went all different directions.

"PENNY!!" He shouted as he ran up to me for a hug what I moved away and glared at him.
"I've been looking everywhere for you! Where the hell were you!?" His voice sounded concerned as he talked.

"I could ask you the same thing." I closed my arms as I have a sassy pose off (irl friends. U know what I mean. Our stand)

"Oh shit! I'm so sorry I just ran off like that! You know the way I told you I couldn't see my sister well I got permission the other day and I kinda just rushed to see her!" His eyes light up as e thought about his younger sister.

"You should of said!!! Like what the hell! You left me here alone and when I came face to face with my step dad you were no where to be seen! I needed you there! You didn't even left a freaking note." I sighed as I let all my anger out. I know I'm probably over reacted but I was left alone think he just left me because he hated me. I felt betrayed. I had to go back to getting abused.

"Penny.... I'm sorry. I hope you understand. It was just a surprise and I really wanted to see her that I didn't think. I never thought anything will happen to you while I was away." He looked down at his feet in guilt. Maybe I should forgive him? But that's giving in too quick.

"Ed! I felt betrayed! I thought that everyone I loved left me! You were my first friend I've had in a while and you just left me alone and scared..." I started walking towards the door. I really didn't want to deal with this right now.

"Wait!" Ed grabbed my arm. "I'm sorry." I tugged away as I walked out.

Maybe things are just too good to be true. I just need to think. I know I should be happy that he can see his sister but he could of said.

But why couldn't he see his sister before?

"I'll explain more of this in detail soon!" He shouted after me. I walked. I walked on.

I needed time. Time to think. Time to fix my life. Time to make my life better.

I over reacted again... didn't I?

*****

I finally got home just before Jim got back from the pub what was good. I walked upstairs to my room where I lay on my bed in silent thinking about life, people, family, skills, jobs and friends?

Maybe I needed to start doing something with my life and finally make up my mind about what I want to do. I can't just hide in my room all of my life. I needed to do something. But what?

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Long time no see huh? Ok that's the first chapter in a while I KINDA enjoyed writing I think it's because the last couple was boring and the last bit tbh was just a filler but it is a big part of life.... right?

OOOOO EDS BACK!! BACK! BACK AGAIN!

Ok hope you's enjoyed

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