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27 | A New Beginning

I walked through the school as i tugged on my jumper making sure nothing was noticeable. I didn't want any attention if people knew. I knew people knew. I could feel people's eyes on me as I walked, I didn't stop or make any eye contact with anyone I just walked.

I got to my locker where I quickly unlocked it and took my books out. I haven't been in school in so long.

"Hey! Penny!? Your back!" A voice shouted from behind me. I shut my eyes in fear.

Shit.

I turned around and saw Holly. A normal girl who is not popular but just hangs out with her own group. To be honest they all look pretty happy just having a small friendship and their own little weird ways of having fun.

"I know we don't talk much but I noticed you weren't in school for awhile." She sweetly said as she looked down at my wrist then back at me. Yup she knew.

"Oh yea I had a really bad sickness so I had to stay off for a bit. Didn't want anyone to get it." I lied as he just stared at me with a fake smile.

She sighed. "Can we talk somewhere private?" She whispered while looking over making sure no one was in site. I nodded in response as we walked down the corridors and into the bathroom.

We walked to the far end of the bathroom and stood there awkwardly facing each other.

"I don't want to be mean but everyone knows why you were off. Rumours travel quickly." She looked down at her feet not wanting to make eye contact.

"Well good for them. No one knows me or why I was off." I was about to walk away before she grabbed my arm to stop me.

"No I just want to warn you to stay away from the you know them kind of people for a bit. You're vulnerable a the moment and they take any sign of weakness." Her eyes were filled with loads of emotions as she talked.

I stayed silence not knowing what to say to this girl I never properly talk to.

"I'm going to tell you something no one knows. Only my online friend knows." I looked at her in confusion as she started shaking.

"Are you ok? You're shaking?" I asked as I placed a hand on her shoulder.

She started to lift up her sleeve to reveal her arm. But not just that... scars and cuts. Not ' I fell off my bike' Cuts but self harm cuts. I could see she was struggling to tell me about this and you definitely could see she's never talked to someone face to face about this.

"I'm telling you so you know you're not alone in this world. There's people like you. People who feel the same way. I wanted to end my life I attempted it. But I made a friend online as I couldn't talk to my real friends. I acted happy for so long when I was dying inside. I pretended to be happy that i didn't feel like myself anymore. But I started talking to my internet friend and she helped me. Step by step. She helped me over come my depression, someone I've never met helped me so much... that shows you. You can get over depression but you always need help. There is people out there to help you. Strangers or not. I will try, but if not me Craig. I know he cares about you and that guy called Ed who people are talking about."

I just stood there. Speechless.. I didn't know what to say or how to feel.
She just told me things that not even her friends know.... but now I know?

"... thanks." I started speaking after a long moment of silence. "You know you didn't have to tell me all this but thank you a lot. It's good to know I'm not alone out there." I smiled at her.

"Any time! But know that you need to talk strangers can help just as good as friends can. So come talk to me about it. I know how you feel."

"Thanks. I'm sorry that you had to go through that-" before I could finish my sentence I was pulled into a hug.

"Please don't do anything you'll regret. It's never the answer. Life will get better." She whispered.

I was taken back by her actions but I put my arms around her as we hugged tightly. The bell rang as we still hugged. We finally pulled apart as she stared at me.

"You looked like you needed one." She smiled and walked out of the bathroom.

"I did." I whispered to myself as I made my way out and to my first class. Today will be a long day but I'll find some way to get through it. Likes think of the positive things.

A new beginning? Yea I like the sound of that.

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This chapter is shorter than the rest SORRY!

A new beginning if nothing triggers her?

I'm trying my best to make this a good book but I'm shite at writing and I forgot all my ideas.... oops sorry!

Well I hope yous enjoyed that chapter ❤️