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29 | Stars Shows Love

Me and Ed walked around shops existing like wee kids at a toy shop.

"Oh my god! Can we please get this!!" I shouted while a old lady gave me a disappointing look.

"OH MY YASSS." Ed shouted even louder while looking at the two frozen Anna and Elsa hats and giant sunglasses I was holding.

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"So why didn't Craig come today?" Ed asked as we sat upside down wearing our frozen hats  and giant sun glasses we got earlier.

"Oh yea he has a date." I giggled to myself.

"Oh yea! I forgot about that." He sat up while taking the glasses off.

"What!? You knew? Why didn't I!?" I sat up straight as he's eye widened.

"Shit." He mumbled.

I shout him a glare as I knew something was up.

"What aren't you telling me?" I asked while feeling a bit betrayed that they were hiding something from me.

"Nothing.." he stood up and walked to the fridge. "Want a coke?"

"No and don't change the subject."

"Whatever fine." He said down beside me with a can of coke. "He's going to kill me for telling you this but." He stopped mid sentence.

"But what? C'mon we're all friends and when yous hide something from me it's not the best feeling." I said honestly.

"Ok so he's been dating her for awhile and didn't want anyone to know but i found out when I saw them holding hands once in town and he made me promise not to tell you because he thought you'll be jealous and wouldn't understand why he wasn't be hanging out with us much."
I knew half of it was true and the other half was a lie. Why couldn't they tell me the truth?

"Really? We're all best friends, It's not like I would care..." I froze as I remember who he was dating. "He's dating that Amy girl. Right?" I asked Ed.

"Yea, I talked to her last weekend when I was saw them two together." He said while scrolling through his phone casually.

"What's she like?" I acted like I didn't know her. I didn't want to know her.

"Uh I don't really know, she kinda seemed up her self...Don't know why Craig would go for her, but hey it's his life." He looked a bit confused but his face then turned into a smile to cover it.

"She is up her self..." I muttered to myself.

"What?" Ed asked as he looked at me with a raised eyebrow. "You know her?"

"No, just seen her about." I lied. There was more than the story I told Ed the day I meet him. Way more before him or Craig came along, stuff I thought that didn't matter. Stuff I thought I could forget about and move on easily.

"Oh ok." The room filled with silence after that as we just sat on our phones being antisocial.

It was a comfortable silence you get when your around people you're close with and it never gets awkward.

After a while of nothingness my stomach made a sound like a lion struggling to fight back a cat. I looked up from my phone to Ed who clearly heard it too. (Why is this me? Oh probs bc im starving rn.)

"Want to order food?" He laughed.

"Yes please." I said as I opened my phone to ring. "What you wanna get?" I asked.

"Pizza?" He said questioningly which of course I nodded to.

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We ordered pizza and sat outside on the grass watching the stars when it got dark. Moments like these are the best. Just sitting there talking, deep, funny chat, anything and it'll be the best.

"So, how you doing since what happened a few months ago?" He asked out of the blue. I was quite shocked and taken back by this because we never really talk about it as it's a very sensitive topic for me and we were all going through a tough time.

"Oh." I didn't know what to say or how to word it. "A lot better than I was back then but it still gets triggered easily and the feeling is always there." I turned to looked at Ed's face what looked concerned. "Don't worry, I haven't done it. Just the thoughts in my head don't leave easily."

"You'll get through it." Ed side hugged me as we still laid on the grass. "We'll all get through it together. I know you, You're strong enough to fight this." I smiled as I hugged him tight. I can't believe that I have someone like this to help me.

"Thank you. That means a lot." I whispered.

"Anytime, Love ya." Some people would be thinking that he's admitting he likes me more than a friend but we both knew it was in a best friend way.

"Love you too." I smiled as we let out of each other.

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It was too late to go home so I texted my mum that I was staying at Ed's. I slept on the sofa in his living room with piles of blankets and pillows that he gave me. Today was a good day with just me and Ed.

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Omg that was shite! I'm so sorry! But this book now has a different meaning to me. Since ino people who have self harmed or who has been suicidal. I've spent nights trying to talk people out of it before and lucky they didn't. So I don't really know where this is going but I kinda have a plan.

Sorry was shitty updates and it was short.