I toss and turn all night I know I won't be able to sleep So I get dressed and go to the canteen to get some water. Noah heads straight over towards me. "what's wrong Maddi" he looks worried. "nothing babe don't worry" he gives me a kiss on the forehead and we seperate to go back to the dorms. On my way there I start to feel light headed. I feel my self slipping. Then nothing. Darkness.
The next morning I wake in a panic. I am in the infirmary. Mum is sat next to dad sleeping whilst dad just stairs into the distance worryingly. "W-w-w-w-happend?" I ask removing the oxygen mask It makes me feel claustrophobic. I start to choke. Dad tries to get me to put the mask back on but I don't want to look weak in fear. Then nothing.
I wake up again this time with a thing that instead gives me oxygen through my nose. Dad gives me a warning look. "Don't take that out Maddi!" I'm so confused what happend. He obviously sees my confusion and tells me my cancer is back. "NO! Please no. Not again" I start to cry , this seems to trigger off mum to dad takes our hands. "We will get through it like we did the first time." Eric walks through laughing as he sees us crying, I will kill him eventually 'all good things come to those who wait' guess I will test that.
Luckly today is a dauntless holiday so I can stay hear all day because I don't want the others to see me like this. My parents have to leave to sort out the arrangement for the paintballing tonight but I'm am told I can't go by my doctors.
I hear someone demanding to see me at the desk and a nurse walks over asking if I want him to come in. I look pathetic I can't tell him. I can''t see the look on his face when I do. Plus, I don't want to be babied. "No" I say through the pain "He can't see me. Not like this. I don't want him to know." I start to cry.
I wake up again to see my parents, both of whom are asleep. The nurse walks in to give me my pain relief. "big day ahead, the final rankings, job picking- know what you want?" she questions "If I can I want Dauntless leader" I will be above Eric then as he is a dauntless leader trainer. I think to myself. Mum springs awake, shaking dad. "hun we have to get ready and you" she says looking at me. The nurse lets us go and tells me to be back by 2 in the morning. Easy. The rankings are placed up. Like the rest of my family were before me I am first Noah is second. I feel a tap on my back and he pulls me into a kiss. "well done" he says, aww he is so sweet. "and you" I smile.
