Ameles potamos

Chapter 12: Devotion

"I have a surprise for you"

"A surprise? here? I don't think I want to know what that would be" he exclaimed as he looked at his fingers.

My guesses are; he's feeling bitter since I theoretically kicked him out of the room when he was visiting me back when I was hurt, "It's too good Nick, aren't you excited?" I said excited, maybe my act was a little over done… like a lot.

"Yeah I am" he faked being excited, it was so obvious.

"Okay, so you're not excited" I said frowning.

 "I am I swear, I'm just tired today. And don't give me that look" he faked his enthusiasm a little more, my frown grew bigger.

"OKAY! I'm fucking excited; I'm so fucking excited that I have the urge to jump off a damn tree"

Now that was overdone.

"Okay I believe you" I regained my wide, bright smile back.

 I pulled him by his hand and started walking towards one of the rooms when I saw Kala, I stopped him and whispered some words to her while making sure he wasn't capable of hearing what I said and then Kala went somewhere and we stood still in our places.

 "What's the surprise Niala?"

 "I thought you didn't want to know" I teased.

 "Come on, I know you want to tell me" he teased even more.

 "No, not exactly"

Kala came back and ushered us to follow her.

We followed her to this room with a TV set in it; she put something inside the video tape and told us to sit on two not very comfortable seats. We sat down and she pointed at a camera hung up on the wall and told me to 'beware'.

 I smiled at her politely.

 When we sat down he asked me "What is that?"

 "Well the other day when you were talking about Lion King.

I decided to ask Julianne if she can allow us to watch it together and she agreed" I smiled

 "Oh… Why?"

 "I don't know, you seem to love that movie and I wanted to see Nala; now that I know she reminds  you of me" Oh god, I was totally flirting, even though I didn't mean it but somehow it didn't feel wrong or even awkward.

The movie started and we watched in silence, and our eyes teared up when Mufasa died, Okay let me correct that, MY eyes were filled up with tears when Mufasa died.

I always hated it when Mufasa dies, who doesn't huh?

It felt so good doing something normal, you know watching a movie is normal… with a friend is normal. With more than a friend; it demanded other things like maybe laying your head on his shoulder just like I did and like maybe not concentrating in the movie but on his perfect, soulless, dark eyes instead, just like I did.

Or even worse imagining what he will do in return of my surprise.

 I imagined so many scenarios in my head while he was watching the movie.

Maybe a hug or a kiss or even better; a hug and a kiss. Eventually when the movie was over, reality slapped me hard like karma does because Nickolas thanked me. THAT'S IT.

 He said thank you. End of story.

That was really disappointing I'm so down right now.

 Laying here in my bed could be the best thing I have done so far at least it was better than reality.

Here is something that is doubted to be a lie; reality, but reality hurts…

Or maybe reality itself is a lie…

A lie we created…

I don't know why he didn't give me that hug, it's probably my never to be combed hair. Or maybe I'm just exaggerating, maybe I shouldn't be thinking about him this way. Maybe I shouldn't look into his eyes so often, or maybe I shouldn't stare at his lips anymore… maybe he noticed and started freaking out and panicking.

I guess I'll never know, since I'll never ask.

 That day I realized that I do like Nickolas and I also realized that staring at his eyes and lips is something completely normal when someone likes the other person. Right?

Even worse; Christmas is too close now and I think this will be the worst Christmas ever…