Ameles potamos

Chapter 21: Broken pieces

When he got back from the hospital his sister explained that he was sick and his nose tends to bleed when he is by any means sick, of course I didn't believe her.

She wasn't merely convincing.

However I nodded and throughout the whole day they refused to let me near his room, which sucked because I needed to talk to him, I needed to check on him. They told me he was fine, they told me he was sleeping, they told me he was resting.

I knew they were lying but I had to believe them, I knew he was avoiding me.

As a result I skipped the rehearsal dinner and stayed at the guest's room, I felt so unwelcomed and I felt so uncomfortable.

I know I just said that they were too sweet and shit, but yeah that was bullshit.

I felt like such a burden and decided to leave the next day except that his sister told me to stay and kept telling me that I would have so much fun and things like that.

I did stay, because I didn't want to leave Dylan and I didn't know exactly how I will be leaving.

During the wedding, I kept begging for any kind of fun, but that never happened and when Dylan finally showed up he ignored me and treated me like shit.

At the end of the night we said goodbye for the newly wedded couple and started packing our bags and left early in the morning, let me tell you Julianne the whole road he didn't utter a word and I refused to talk to him too. When I finally got home, I decided to call him the next day and so I did but he never answered back.

"Can we continue tomorrow?" I asked Julianne, she shook her head "Our appointment is not until Thursday" and today was Monday but I agreed and went back to my room.

The next couple of days went by as slow as dancing ants, and it was raining heavily outside so none of us could dare to step in the rain, it was almost a pour but thankfully it didn't get there.

It was finally Thursday and I went to Julianne's office but didn't find her there, then one of the nurses told me that today was checkups and that she won't be taking any appointments.

"But no one asked me to come for checkups?" I told the nurse

"Well it's not your turn yet, your checkups are probably tomorrow or after tomorrow" she answered

God I would kill to let them be tomorrow since I'll get to see Nickolas, "Its alphabetical order, Right?" she nodded and I thanked her.

I ran to my room and started smiling in a silly manner, I haven't seen him since that other day and since then he's been avoiding me. In fact I was avoiding him, since I don't really know what to tell him or what to do.

It turns out that my checkups was the day after, so I decided to keep my emotions up until I get to see him, what made me even more excited the fact that we have to take off our shirts for certain checkups, so the thought of Nickolas shirtless, was very alluring.

I slept with the thought of him shirtless curving the twists of my brain, obviously these thoughts wouldn't help anymore with my nightmares.

 I woke up knowing that this isn't reality. This was a nightmare, THE worst nightmare.

You think for a second that you would sense this being a nightmare, even though it's too real, but you just don't realize it until it's over.

However, this is not the truth I knew this was a nightmare because, it couldn't be real even though it felt real, the pain was too real that the realms of reality almost tricked me into thinking that this was real.

I was lying on my back with the heavens staring back at me, beneath me was hell and its flames, the flames that were eating me up

A thousand shards of thorns were being pushed underneath my skin forming scars, those scars haloed with shadows and emitted poison, such pain was unbearable.

I resented being caged. I was cuffed to the hellhounds of the unearthly scenery underneath me.

What hurt me the most was the heavens lying against my breath, I could feel it, I could smell it and I could almost touch it but I wasn't allowed to, that’s when I saw her…

I screamed and screamed and all I could hear was the echoes of my screams, the echoes of my pain intensified.

I woke up with my head throbbing from the pain of that nightmare, it was like suffering from suffocation especially when it’s the alignment of heavens and hell; the ones I'll never visit, my body is too rummaged for heaven and too sick that hell would spit me out.