Ameles potamos

Chapter 17: What's this?

When the session was over I decided that it's about time I go end some suspicions in my head.

 I was going to talk to Delilah.

When I reached the hallway where Delilah was submitted, I shivered from the cold and the discomfort I felt.

When I talked to the doctor, she told me that visits aren't allowed now.

So I decided to re-visit later.

It was nearly dark now, so I decided to go sit in the maze when I could finally get to talk with Delilah.

While walking I found Nickolas standing in front of my room.

"Nick?" I smiled.

"You're not in your room. I was waiting for you to come out"

"Okay weirdo. Let's go to the maze"

 When we finally got there we sat down in silence

"I dreamt about you last night" I told Nickolas

"Was I shirtless? Or I was on the beach surrounded by six hotties from all around the world?" he said casually

"Ha-Ha-Ha. So not funny" I had my poker face on.

"Actually nick, I thought it was a dream but it turned out to be one of my endless nightmares" I sighed.

It was dark now and the lights weren't very shiny. His face was stiff and apparently he was sad. "What was your 'nightmare'?".

"You know it reminded me of my first nightmare I ever had, I was with Dylan in the car and it was raining heavily. We were headed to his sister's wedding" I explained

"How come?"

"Well the first time I had one of those nightmares I thought it was a dream too. In the dream... Sorry I mean nightmare, I was sitting alone and I found you sitting alone too in the opposite side of the street" I smiled at the thought "then we sat down together, talked and then you just left..." My face was etched with my feels.

"I just left?"

"Yes, you just left. No introductions, no warnings. You just left... Like all of them..." I wanted to beg him not to do so, and to plead for him to always be close whenever I need him. And in a parallel universe if he ever managed to leave the mental hospital, he would come and visit me.

 "I wouldn't ... I would never do that Nala. I promise" he entwined his hands with mine and gripped it tightly. It felt really assuring and it felt good to have someone promise me that he'll never leave but most promises are broken.

"Now I'm most certain Nickolas that when I'm dead and gone... No one will care to visit. And I'll finally be alone with knowing that no one needs me and I need no one. It's the most honest loneliness we'll ever know" I smiled as he squeezed my hand tighter making me feel safer.

"Don't talk of death Nala" he said kindly

"Why? Don't we love to talk about our future? Well let me tell you this, the only thing I'm sure about in my future is my death and I will embrace it when it comes"

"Stop it Niala..." He looked the other way

"Nickolas we're in a mental hospital. We have no future. Death is our only savior" his face was grave

"I know Niala. Now stop, as a human being I don't like it when facts are being stated at me"

we all do Nickolas I wanted to say but I didn't.

"Nala" his low husky voice called my favorite name with much tenderness that made my heart dwell.

I had to collapse between his arms and exhaled loudly. "Please keep your promise. Don't ever leave me" I pleaded him, he ran his hand through my hair and held me closer

"I won't" was all he said.

 We stayed like this for about half an hour it was the best awkward silence in my life. I have never enjoyed an awkward silence before this moment, even though it was one of the coldest days in the month but the heat I felt surrounding our bubble was unbearable.

"What is it that you can keep after giving it to someone else??"He broke the silence with one of his riddles

"I don't know; a book?" That was a silly answer.

He burst out laughing "No, in fact it's something you will give to me..."

"Ugh come on Nick, stop being mysterious" his face was deadpan "You know I'm always mysterious" he said sarcastically.

I smiled

 "It's your word Nala... I want your word on something"

"Okay... I give you my word" I said in a rush,

"Hear it first you idiot. What if you don't like it?"

 "I will, just tell me"

"I want your word that if any of us ever got out of here we'll search all those galaxies to find our maze" he said pointing at the sky

"A maze like the one we have here?"

"Yes, our favorite place right?"

 "Yeah" I chuckled.

When I got back to my room I laid down on the floor thinking about that first nightmare I had.

It was a sunny day when I suddenly found myself on cloud nine. Literally, when I was up there, I could see beautiful creatures and perfect halos of everything but after taking another look everything went black and the clouds were wrestling for their decomposition, they were bleeding with rain and the storm killed all those beautiful creatures, the halos though remained.

They remained still but they stopped glowing brightly.

Looking at the walls in my room made me realize that everything that seems good is actually bad or eventually will turn bad, humanity must learn how not to lose themselves within this battle.

 I have to learn not to become rotten within my battle.