Ameles potamos

Chapter 23: silver and cold

I returned to the maze that same night and sat there all by myself, I listened to the sound of owls and crickets while my mind drifted to a far land, a land that once existed and has now been demolished because of what we've all become.

The thoughts of Dylan and the night I invaded his house finally released themselves in my mind…

After locking himself in his room for about two hour he finally left the room and saw me lying on his couch, I looked at him with tears in my eyes

"You can't do this to me"

"Do what?" he said coldly as his eyes twitched

"I have no idea; you kissed me back, you know that? Why are you avoiding me?"

"Because I can't take this… I can't let this happen"

"What's 'this'?"

His face was as dark as  the night in the oceans

"It's dark, it's cruel and it's so cold. It's painful too; it's full of unwanted desires. It's full of untamed animals. I can't and I won't let you in… I can't love you and you can't love me back" his voice held pain and tragedies, I didn't know what to tell him.

 Everything he said was true, he was like a deserted island that I'd get lost in easily.

He was even more convoluted than I ever thought; his pains are eating him from within. If any person tried getting near that island; the island would urge them to their deaths.

"I'll make it better" I whispered stepping closer towards him

He smiled and looked the other way, "I'd tear you apart, and I'd ruin your heart and the best part is that I would eventually fade away. Believe me I would win your heart and earn it. "Don't be so blind" he continued, "I'm not for you, you're like crimson and I- I'm the thorns that will cut you to pieces" he said

"What is it that scares you the most? The fact that, no one can save you like I can? Or you're just scared of me?" I wasn't even aware of my words

"Don't be so pathetic" he yelled

"Look at me" I cupped his face,

 "I can be your sanctuary, I can be everything you want, I can be the holy ground you're scared to visit" I moved closer to his lips and whispered, "Let me save you"

He bit his lips and stared into my features, my lips, and my soul. He forced the air present between us to disappear.

"I just don't want to hurt you…" he pressed his forehead to mine and pulled my body closer,

He kissed not only my lips, I could feel him touch my heart and every limb in me was paralyzed each time he takes off a piece of his clothes, he painted my body with every emotion he had, I could feel his breath on my neck. He moved his lips gently across my collarbone and shaped my hair between his hands, his arms surrounding me, I took off his shirt and I revealed his bare chest and his pain along with it, I touched his scars with my fingertips and followed it by my lips, he aligned my body with his, he carried me all the way to his bed and laid me down carefully, the feeling of the soft mattress was rough in comparison to his skin. He breathed heavily, I couldn't breathe at all. All I could do was kiss him back, roughly. He was the air I'm breathing. He was the reality I feared. At this moment all the decisions we ever made were untied, all the sins we ever committed were combined and I could feel it in my soul for the first time; perfection.