I want you

My first shoot

Today was the day of my first shoot it was a sunny day in September-4th of September. I dressed in the clothes C.K had sent me and headed into town where I was going to meet the photographer. A mixture of emotions swam round in my stomach, excitement and nerves mixed together filled me top to toe.

I met him at the coffee shop and we discussed how the shoot would work-as I'd never done one before. He was really nice his name was Lee and our talk calmed me down so much. We headed to his studio above one of the shops in town.

The walls were painted fresh white making the room seem bright and airy. He adjusted the lighting and set up his camera on a tripod-while he did this is I got changed into the first set of clothes.

I put on a black under wear set, blue denim jeans and a white button up shirt. I walked back into the studio to find Lee taking a few practice shots of the white background-I guess he was looking at the lighting and stuff. I walked out and he told me to sit on the stool he'd placed in front of the camera and get comfortable. I sat with my legs slightly apart and placed my arms limply over my legs.

As I spent longer with Lee and longer getting my pictures taken I became more comfortable. We'd done a couple of different shots now and I'd also unbuttoned my shirt revealing the C.K bralette. My hair flew loosely on my back, it was slightly wavy because I'd left it natural. Lee said the next place to get shots should be on the beach.

"The beach? It's September I'll be freezing" I said.

"Trust me you'll be fine its quite sunny out and you'll forget about the temperature trust me" Lee's husky voice spoke

"Okay" I replied. I rebuttoned my shirt and placed my shoes on and grabbed my bag and the other C.K clothes. Lee put his camera in it's bag and carried down a tripod and portable light.

It was a short walk to the beach but on the journey Lee spoke more to me about the shoot. He said that the C.K head office were very eager for these shots as I had "potential" and Lee said from what he'd taken today he agree.

We reached the beach and Lee told me to wear the white set. I was reluctant but entered the beach toilets and put on tbe under wear set. By the time I came out i saw Lee had set up near the beach huts. It was weird i was in my undies at the beach and even though many holiday makers had gone back as it was September and nearly school time there were still people at the beach, who did give me my fair share of dirty looks. I sat down the wall by the beach huts and Lee looked at me with a puzzled look on his face.

"What?" I questioned. "Is it this set, do I look fat, should i take it off" I bombarded him with questions.

"No no you look great" Lee responded. "It's just could you take your necklace off?"

Take it off? I looked down at it the ring hanging loosely off the chain. I hadn't taken it off since Bristol. I slept, showered, ate, lived and breathed in it. I couldn't bare myself to take it off because I thought if I took it off it meant I didn't care, that I'd forgotten.

"I'd rather keep it on if that's okay, it's um well it means a lot to me" I replied rather sheepishly. Was I out of order?

"Okay that's fine don't worry" Lee replied and it really did seem to be fine.

We took quite a few shots at the beach, and Lee said they were all good and that C.K and gleam would be happy with them. He said he'd send me the pictures and that he'd also send them to gleam and C.K to save me the bother. I got redressed and said goodbye to Lee. I walked back to my car and made my way home.

Well for my first shoot it honestly wasn't as bad as I thought.