Rubik's Cube (Joshler)

CHAPTER 37: I'm Not Too Sure Anymore

Josh's POV ~

Tyler kept telling me to go to sleep because he's worried about me. I've already slept for an hour, I can't fall back to sleep. I'm not sure why... I want to I'm exhausted.
Tyler thinks I'm asleep right now but I'm actually not I just had my eyes closed when he was down here.
He's upstairs watching tv now and I'm just laying on the bed with nothing to do. I could get up and go be with Tyler but he'll probably tell me to get some more sleep. I miss him and he's only been upstairs for a half hour.

I decided I'm going to go see him. I drag myself out of the room and up the stairs. I slowly walk into the living room and Tyler looks up at me. "Hey.. Did you have a good sleep?" he asked as I sat down next to him. "Actually no... I um... Didn't actually go to sleep I pretended to so you wouldn't worry... I'm sorry."

"You could have just said you couldn't go back to sleep." He frowned. "I know.. I'm sorry." I said grabbing his hand and resting my head on his shoulder. "It's okay."

°~ magical transition to Monday because I can~°

I haven't slept since Friday. Tyler doesn't know, I haven't told him.... But I think he suspects it.
There's school today which I'm not looking forward to. I can't even focus on my phone how am I supposed to focus on school work.

I'm currently sprawled out on the couch with an arm and a leg hanging off it, staring up at the ceiling.
It kinda looks like the ceiling is moving... Or maybe I'm moving.
Either way it's weird.

I'm waiting for Tyler to get up and get ready so I can get this day over with. He won't be up for a while tho it's only 6am... He doesn't get up til 7:30 ish. My mom should be up any second tho. Yup there she is.

"Still can't sleep?" she asked walking into the room. "Nope." I said sitting up so she could sit next to me. She sighed as she sat down. "Well do you want to help me make breakfast?" she questioned. "Oh um.. Sure."

I stood up and got very dizzy. My mom grabbed my arm to help me regain my balance. "It's okay Josh I'll make breakfast by myself you just lay down." she said. "No I'm fine really."

She didn't look like she believed me but she didn't argue either. I followed her into the kitchen. She asked me to get the eggs out of the fridge so I did. When she had all the eggs cracked and in the pan she told me to put the rest of the eggs away and throw out the shells.

"Josh what are you doing?" she asked.
"What do you mean?" I said confused.
"Your throwing out the eggs and you put the egg shells in the fridge." she said with a worried expression. I look down at my hands to see that I am in fact about to throw the eggs out. "Oh.... Sorry." I said still standing there trying to figure out how I didn't realise.

"Are you sure your okay?" my mom asked taking the eggs out of my hands. "Yeah... Yeah" I lied.

She was almost done with the bacon.
"Can you get the juice out of the fridge?" she asked. "Yeah." I jogged over to the fridge.
"What are you doing now Josh?" she asked extending her hand in a questioning manner. "...getting the juice?"

"I don't think we keep the juice in the pantry." she said. The pantry? I looked back at what I thought was the fridge. Nope it's the pantry. "Maybe you should go lay down." she said. I just stood there with furrowed eyebrows trying to process why I thought the pantry was the fridge.

"Good morning momma dun. Morning Josh." Tyler said as he walked into the kitchen. I blinked a few times still confused with what I did. He came over and gave me a peck on the lips.

"You okay Joshie?" he asked putting a hand on my shoulder. "I'm not too sure anymore." I said shifting my gaze between both his eyes. "Come on. Come sit down." he said guiding me to one if the kitchen chairs.

"Whats going on?" he asked once we were seated. "I'm doing it again... I can't focus properly." I pinching the bridge of my nose. "You mean your doing stuff like the milk and the cereal with different items?" he asked and I nodded. "I put the egg shells in the fridge and almost threw out the eggs and I thought the pantry was the fridge."

"Whens the last time you slept?" he asked with concern. "Your not going to like the answer." I said. He creased his eyebrows slightly before relaxing again. ".. The last time I slept was on Friday... That hour that I slept when we came home was the last time I slept." I told him. "You really need to get some sleep." he said. "Yeah ..no kidding."

We ate breakfast and left for school.
I couldn't concentrate on anything and got yelled at multiple times just during first class. I decided to ask Tyler to take me home so I won't get yelled at anymore.

Me: hey Ty can you take me home? The teacher keeps yelling at me for not focusing and stuff.

Brendon: ....dude I'm not Tyler.

Me: oh.... Sorry

Brendon: it's fine... I can take you home tho if you want

Me: really? That'd be great

Brendon: okay... What class you in? I'll come get you

Me: um math

Brendon: okay be there in a min

I put my phone in my pocket and gathered my stuff in my bag. Brendon knocked on the door and told the teacher he needed to talk to me. I grabbed my bag and walked out of the class.

I started walking down the hallway. "Where are you going? The parking lots this way." Brendon said. "Oh.. Right." I said following him.

Once we were in the car and started driving toward my house Brendon kept glancing at me. "...why do you keep looking at me?" I asked. "You seem off.... You okay?"

"To be honest I don't even know anymore. I haven't slept in days and haven't been sleeping well the last like 2 and a half weeks." I said leaning my head on the window. "Why can't you sleep?"

"I have no clue." I answered as we pulled up to my house. "Thanks for the drive see ya later." I said getting out of the car and walking to the front door. Brendon rolled down his window. "Josh that's not your house!" he yelled. I looked at him and he pointed toward my house. "Oh.. Thanks!" I yelled back.

I went inside and texted Tyler that I was at home so he's not worrying.

Me: Hey Ty... I'm at home... Brendon drove me. I'll see you after school. love you! <3

Mom: ... Josh hunny look who you texted.

Me: oh.. Sorry mom

Mom: its fine sweetheart but I got to go see you later <3

I sighed and opened Tyler's conversation... At least I hope it's Tyler's.

Me: hey Ty I'm at home Brendon drove me. I'll see you after school. love you! <3

Tyler: oh okay.. Love you too <3

Me: oh thank god

Tyler: huh?

Me: I kept texting the wrong person that's how Brendon ended up driving me I thought he was you and messaged him... I also messaged mom thinking she was you.

Tyler: oh I see.

Me: yeah... Have a good day at school.

Tyler: I'll try

I put my phone in my pocket and plopped down on the couch face first.

A/N ~ me and my moms boyfriend went over to the store earlier and I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking and almost got hit by a hummer👌👌👌. Working on the next chapter now. Love you! Bye❤
~Squish