Rubik's Cube (Joshler)

CHAPTER 3: Salutations

Josh's POV ~

I waved goodbye to Tyler and ran to my front door, going inside. After the door was shut I slid down it til I sat on the floor with my back against it, running both hands threw my hair.

"He wants to be my friend" I whispered smiling slightly to myself. The smile didn't last long when doubtful thoughts started to flow through my head. 'what if he's joking ... Or only did it out of pity... What if its a fake number'

I was snapped out of my thoughts by my mom. "Josh? What are you doing home so early? Why aren't you at school?" I stared at her trying to think of how I want to answer.

I decided not to tell her what happened cause I don't want her to worry "I don't really want to talk about it... I'm just tried. I'm okay though so don't worry." I said as I got up and walked down to my room leaving my mom standing in the porch. She knows to leave me alone when I don't feel up to talking.

I sat in my room for a good hour over thinking things and contemplating actually texting the number Tyler gave me.

I decided I was going to do it. I had Tyler's messages open and had 'hi' typed in, then I erased it and put 'hello'. This repeated itself multiple times until I had 'salutations' typed in with my thumb hovering over the send button and pressed it.

Tyler: salutations?

Me: it means hello..

Tyler: oh ... It kinda makes me want crackers.... Anyway who is this?

Me: uh its Josh...
from earlier..

Tyler: oh hi Josh
Didn't think you would actually text me.

Me: why would you think that?

Tyler: idk.. I'm just not anything special... Didn't think you would want to waste your time talking to me..

Me: and why aren't you anything special?.... If it weren't for you I'd probably be lost somewhere crying trying to find my way home.

Tyler: oh

Me: oh?

Tyler: yea..
So whats up?

Me: nothing too interesting ..just chilling on my bed talking to you.... Wbu?

Tyler: crying

Me: wait what? Why? Is everything okay?

Tyler: yea... I'm fine idk why I said I was crying cause I'm not... I was only joking...

Me: are you sure?

Tyler: yes..

Me:... You can talk to me if somethings bothering you... I mean you don't have to, just if you want someone to talk too I'm here.

Tyler:...ok... It wont be awkward?

Me: no

Tyler: ..ok um.. Well you know how I was crying when we bumped into each other?

Me: yes

Tyler: well I'm crying for the same reason now..

Me:.... Ok .. And what is that reason?

Tyler:... Never mind you'll think I'm crazy or something

Me: no I won't.. I promise

Tyler:...yes you will

Me: please tell me Tyler.. I promise you I will not think your crazy

Tyler: ok fine

Me: thank you

(TRIGGER WARNING...maybe idk I'm putting it just in case tho)

Tyler: there's this voice... In my head.. He tells me that I'm worthless and that no one would care if I died.... Sometimes he gets so loud I get a headache.. He tells me to do things that I shouldn't do but a part of me wants to and idk what to do.

Me: its ok.. everything's gonna be ok.. Don't listen to him you're not worthless and people would care if you died... Please don't do anything bad.. Don't hurt yourself ..please

Tyler: it's not gonna be ok! No one would care if I died ...not my mom or dad or siblings no one!... And why shouldn't I hurt myself I deserve it!

Me: No you don't! You don't deserve it why would you think you deserve to be hurt!? And someone would care if you died.. You want to know how I know because if you died I would care!

I feel bad for snapping at him like that, but he has to know that someone cares... Wait why do I care so much about this boy... We just met not even 2 hours ago idk anything about him.

I was panicking now because its been a while since I sent the message and he hasn't replied yet... Did I upset him because I snapped? Maybe he thinks it's weird that I care about him so much.. Idk why I do I just do.

I had a few tears in my eyes from being worried about Tyler. Just then my mom lightly knocked on the door and slowly came in. "Hi sweetheart. How are you doing? You want something to eat?" I could tell she wanted to ask more questions like 'why did you come home early?' 'why are you crying?' 'did something happen today?' but she refrained from doing such. "I'm okay mom and sure I'll have something to eat" I gave her a slight smile.

"Okay... How about I order a pizza?" she asked sitting down at the end of my bed. " sounds great.. Thanks mom"
Then she left to go order the pizza.

I was still really worried about Tyler cause he still hasn't answered... Should I text him again? Yeah I should.

Me: Tyler? You okay? You still there?
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A/N ~ *maniacal laughter* but seriously sorry for the cliffhanger. Anyway hope your enjoying so far thanks for reading.Love you! Bye❤
~Squish