Rubik's Cube (Joshler)

CHAPTER 33: Therapist And Hickeys

Josh's POV ~

I walk out into the kitchen and my mom was sat at the table. She gestured for me to join her so I did.

"What it is mom?" I asked. "Tyler.... What did he mean when he said 'the voice in his head'?" she looked concerned.

"Um I don't know too much about it... All I know is that this 'blurryface' is a voice in his head that tells him he's worthless and tells him to hurt himself. It really scares me if I'm honest I don't want him hurting himself anymore." the both of us were talking quietly so Tyler couldn't hear us.  "What do you mean anymore?"

I bit my lip realising what I said. I looked at the entrance to the kitchen to make sure Tyler wasn't there. He wasn't. "He cuts himself mom... I don't think he's done it since he showed me... I haven't seen any new ones but I'm scared he's going to do it again. Mom I don't want to lose him... I can't lose him." I started to cry.

"Oh my god Josh are you kidding me?" she asked with a worried expression. I shook my head no and wiped my eyes. "I'm scared he's going to listen to blurry and do it again or do something worse."

"....do you think he would agree to going to see a therapist?" my mom whispered. "I.... I don't know.. Maybe."
I whispered back. She sighed before getting up and motioning for me to follow.

My mom sat next to Tyler while I stood awkwardly in the door.
"Whats going on?" he asked.
"Tyler..." my mom started. "You don't have to agree... You don't have to do it if you don't want to but... Me and Josh were talking and we think it would be good for you to go see a therapist."

Tyler looked uneasy at the thought. "..I.." he trailed off. "...yeah." he nodded. "So you want to go?" I asked just to make sure he really wanted to do it. "Yeah.. It's worth a try I guess."
I walked over to him and my mom and he stood up. I hugged him.
"Okay.. I'm going to make some calls and schedule an appointment." my mom said before leaving the room.

"Josh?" he spoke. "Yes baby?" I pulled back a bit to look at him. "Can you come with me when I go?" he asked.
"Of course I can."

We laid down on the couch and watched a movie. My mom came back in a little while later.

"Your first appointment is tomorrow at 9am.. I'm going to take another day off and so are you two... Were all going to go together the first time but the rest of the times just you and Josh will go.. I informed the school that you two won't be there on Tuesdays
From 9 to 10am they said its fine."
My mom informed us on everything.
"Okay." we both said as she kissed both our foreheads.

The rest of the day we spent cuddling and watching movies. We would have went out and did something but my ribs hurt a lot so I didn't want to move too much.

I fell asleep on the couch around 8 or 9pm. Tyler was in the shower. When he came back out he was crying and it woke me up.

I sat up as quickly as I could ignoring the pain that just shot through my chest and ran over to hug Tyler. "What? Whats wrong Tyler?" I asked in a panicked manner. My mind was racing. "I almost did it Josh. I'm sorry" he cried. My eyes widen and I pulled back grabbing his wrist cause I knew exactly what he was talking about. I know he said almost but I had to make sure.

There was still no new cuts and I let out a sigh of relief. I held his hands with tears in my eyes. "It's okay.. You didn't... I'm proud of you." I said pulling him back into a hug.
"He won't shut up.... I asked him to stop and he said if I did it he would... I didn't because I didn't want to disappoint you." he sniffed.
"You could never disappoint me Ty.. I love you." I said giving him a kiss. "I love you too."

"Lets go to bed... It's late, big day tomorrow." I said grabbing his hand and leading him down to my room.

I took my shirt off and threw on some jogging pants as Tyler climbed into bed he already had his PJ's on from when he got out of the shower. My chest was wrapped in a bandage because of my ribs. I had to take it off before going to sleep tho so I don't damage it even more. It still looked horrible.

Tyler was starring at it as I climbed in next to him. When I was situated he leaned over and placed a gentle kiss to the bruised area, I could barely feel it because of how soft it was. Then he moved up to my lips and kissed me.

When he tried to pull away to go to sleep, I grabbed the back of his neck and deepened it. I sat up and turned to face him more keeping our lips attached and my hand on his shoulder. I moved him back until he was the one laying down and I hovered over him.

I moved my lips to under his jaw and left kisses all the way down to his collar bone. I searched for a few seconds before I found his sweet spot and he let out a quiet moan. I sucked on the skin leaving a small purple mark.

"Okay boys I'm going to bed- oh. Oh my god I'm sorry I didn't realise you two were um.. I'm going to go." my mom said barging into the room and leaving just as fast as she came in.

I pulled away from his neck and smiled laughing slightly. He was blushing wildly. I leaned down and gave him another quick kiss before climbing off him. I put my arm around him pulling him up against my right side and falling asleep.

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My alarm woke me up it was 8am. That gives me and Tyler an hour to get ready, eat and drive to the therapists office.

I got up and shut the alarm off while Tyler sat up and stretched. I walked back over to him and gave him a good morning kiss. When I pulled away I spotted the hickey I left last night and smirked to myself.

We went upstairs and ate some cereal cause we were both too lazy to make anything else. After we got dressed and then Tyler went to the bathroom.

A few minutes later he came out and walked over to me with a faked angry expression. "What?" I chuckled. "My neck you dimwit." he smiled. "What about it I think it looks beautiful." I grinned. "What you don't like it?... I don't have to do it anymore."

"No! I love it." he rushed out. "That's what I thought now come on we gotta get going moms waiting in the car."

We went out to the car and I sat in the back with him. We held hands and sang songs the whole way there.

A/N ~I don't really have anything to say but Before I go I'm making another chapter because I have no life👌👌👌👌 okay love you! Bye❤
~Squish