Rubik's Cube (Joshler)

CHAPTER 45: Recovery

Josh's POV ~

I haven't left Melanie's house yet. I'm too scared to go back home. I haven't been home since last week. I've ignored all my moms attempts on reaching me. She's probably pissed.
She'll be even more pissed when she finds out what I've been doing.

Melanie let me get a shower and I borrowed some of Tyler's clothes. Now I'm sitting on the couch trying go ignore the craving itching away at me.

"Josh you okay? Your very fidgety." Tyler said sitting next to me on the couch. "Yeah. I'm fine." I said back. He grabbed my hand that was clawing at my leg and held it tight.

I didn't realise I started crying until I heard the small sob escape my lips. "It's okay Josh." Tyler said rubbing my back. "I wish it was Ty. But it's really not." I said trying to wipe my tears away.

"Were gonna get through this." he said. I just leaned my head on his shoulder. Melanie walked in and sat in the reclining chair. "Hey Josh sorry for being so hard on you and stuff." she said. "It's fine." I replied closing my eyes. "I hate me too."

"I don't hate you Josh." Melanie said. "I'm just... I don't know upset maybe?
Tyler's been my best friend since middle school so went I found out what happened I was just upset." she explained. "I get it." I sniffed.

Tyler kissed the top of my head. "I love you." he whispered. I smiled. "God I missed hearing that." I said. "I love you too."

"Oh my god you guys are so adorable." Melanie's screeched. "Shut up Mel." Tyler said jokingly. He ran his hand through my hair. I hummed at the feeling.

"So what are your guys' plans from here?" Melanie asked. "Um not sure. Would I be allowed back at your house Josh?" Tyler asked me. "Yeah... "
I trailed off.

"What?" Tyler questioned. "Moms gonna be mad at me if I go home." I told him. "It'll be okay. I'll be right next to you. We don't even have to go til your ready." he said and I nodded.

We sat on the couch for a while watching TV and the occasional small talk.

"I think I'm ready to go home." I said softly. "Are you sure?" Tyler asked. I nodded and sat up. Tyler gathered his stuff, we said goodbye to Melanie and we were off to my house.

I fiddled anxiously the whole drive, not knowing if it was because I'm scared of what'll happen when I get home or because I'm having withdrawals... It's probably both.

After about a 25 minute drive we arrived at my house. I took a deep breath, Tyler grabbed my hand and we walked into the house.

"Hello? Who's there?" my mom called from upstairs. "It's us momma dun." Tyler called back to her. She came rushing down the hall and pulled us both into a hug.

She pulled back and gave me a stern look. I swallowed nervously. "Why weren't you answering my calls or messages?" she asked. "I um.. I'm sorry. I didn't want you to know how bad I got. I'm sorry mom."

She just pulled me into a hug. "Just don't do it again." she said. She sighed and pulled away. "Are you boys hungry?" she asked. I tapped my fingers on my thigh at a fast pace and shifted from foot to foot not really paying attention to her.

"I could eat." Tyler said eyeing my fidgeting hand. "Okay what about you Josh? Are you hungry?" mom asked. I shrugged. "Whens the last time you ate?" Tyler asked with a concerned expression.

"I-i don't know." I answered. "Your eating." my mom said before walking off to the kitchen.

Me and Tyler went downstairs to put Tyler's stuff away. I really wish I could have a drink... Just one.. Just to get this craving to stop.

When everything was back in its place I laid on the bed with my legs hanging off the end, running my hands down my face.

"Whats wrong?" Tyler asked sitting beside me. "Nothing just.." I sighed. "You want a drink?" Tyler asked. I nodded. "Look Josh I know it's hard but please try to get through today without a drink." Tyler said playing with my hair. "Okay." I sighed.

"BOYS COME EAT!" my mom screamed from upstairs. I didn't move but Tyler got up to go eat. "You coming?" he asked. "No. I'm gonna take a nap or something." I said. "Please come eat first?" he asked.

"Do I have to?" I groaned. "Yes." he said grabbing my hands to pull me up. "I don't want to." I whined as he pulled me up the stairs. "Too bad." he said and I made another whiney sound.

I flopped down into one of the chairs at the table and mom placed a plate of food in front of me. I felt sick just looking at it. "Eat and you better eat all of it." my mom said pointing at the food before walking away.

I looked at it with disgust. "Joshie?" Tyler whispered from across the table. "What?" I asked. "Eat please. I don't care if you eat all of it or not. just eat something. For me?" he said.

I looked up at him and took a deep breath. "Okay... Only for you." I said picking up my fork and putting some food in my mouth.

I got about a forth into my food before I had to stop. I felt like throwing up. "You okay?" Tyler asked. "Yeah. I just feel nauseated."

"You don't have to eat anymore if you don't want to. You did good I'm proud of you." Tyler said with a smile. I nodded focusing on trying to keep what I just ate in my stomach.

"I'm gonna go lay down." I told Tyler before walking off downstairs. Damn. Recovery is going to be harder then I thought.

A/N ~ my hair is blue lol its so purdy. Anyway love you! Bye❤
~Squish