Rubik's Cube (Joshler)

CHAPTER 62: Because I Love You

Tyler's POV ~

Josh. He's been very short tempered lately. I know he's stressed and everything but sometimes he snaps for no reason. Right now were watching a movie in the living room with his family. I was snuggled up into his side on the couch, slowly falling asleep.

"Josh do you want some popcorn?" Abby asked. "No I'm okay." he responded. "Okay.. What about you Tyler?" she asked. "No thank you."

"Are you sure?" she questioned. "Yes he's sure! He just said he didn't want it!" Josh snapped. I pulled away from Josh and looked at him. He looked angry.

"Josh it's okay she just wanted to make sure I didn't want any. There's no need to yell." I said calmly. He glared at me then abruptly left the room. I sighed and got up to follow him.

Momma dun grabbed my arm as I went to. "Just ignore him Tyler. He probably just needs some space." she said. I nodded and sat back down.

*buzz* my phone went off.

Josh: tell mom I'm going out for a bit

Me: where are you going?

Josh: just out

Me: Josh

Josh: what

Me: tell me where your going please

Josh: I'm going for a walk okay? Is that okay? Am I allowed to do that??

Me:.....
Yes your allowed...
I was just wondering where you were going...

Josh: why did you think I was going to go get drunk or something?

Me:  no
Damn
Sorry for being a concerned boyfriend

Josh: okay

Me:.....

Josh: what now

Me: are you okay?
Are we okay?
Did I do something to upset you?
Like are you mad at me or something?

Josh: no

Me: then I'm confused

Josh: about what

Me: the way you've been acting

Josh: what do you mean?

Me: you keep getting angry over nothing

Josh: yeah well I'm sorry okay? Is that what you wanted to hear?

Me:   :(
Josh please

Josh: please?

Me: stop

Josh: ?
I'm leaving now

Me: no

Josh: no?

Me: go to the room

Josh:.... Why

Me: because I said so
Were having a talk

Josh: what are you my mom

Me: no
I am your boyfriend and were having a talk in the room NOW

Josh:.... Okay

I stood up. "If everyone could please not come downstairs for the next while I'd appreciate it." I said while walking out of the room.

I walked into me and Josh's room to see Josh sitting on the bed looking pretty annoyed.

"What? What do you want to talk about?" he asked in a snappy tone. "That. That right there. Your fricking attitude lately. I get that your stressed and having a rough time at work but that is no excuse to be acting the way you are not only towards me but towards your family as well. We haven't done anything to make you act the way you do yet you do it anyway. Ever think that you might be making us feel like shit? I'm going to guess no cause you continue to do it then seem oblivious to the fact the you just yelled at us for no reason." I stated loudly. He face softened and he looked at the floor.

I raised my eyebrows waited for some type of response but instead I got Josh choking on a sob. I slowly walked over to him, sat next to him and hugged him.

"I'm sorry." he sobbed then drew in a sharp breath. "I'm so sorry.. I-i just.. I-i can't.. I-" I shushed him and rubbed his back. "I-i shouldn't be t-taking it out on you guys."

"It's okay just breathe right now okay?" he nodded and shakily exhaled.

After a few minutes of neither of us talking he finally spoke. "I'm really sorry Ty. My boss has been on my ass for the past week and he wants to increase my hours and he lowered my pay and I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm trying so hard to do things right but nothings working out."

I frowned. "I know your trying Josh. I know and that's all I could ask.... Things will work out.. Eventually." I said placing a kiss to his temple, letting my lips linger for a few seconds. He nodded.

"Ty... Can I ask you something?" he asked. "Yes." I responded. "Why are you still with me? I've done so much that upset you yet your still here.. Why? All I do is mess up and end up hurting you in some way.. I just don't understand why you put up with it when you could easily leave."

My heart ached and I hugged him tighter as tears stung my eyes. "Because I love you Josh. I love you so fricking much. You mean everything to me Josh. When I left that one time I couldn't stand being away from you. Before you called that night for me to go get you I was crying cause I missed you. I need you Josh. That's why I'm still here. Because I love you too much to leave. I'll always forgive you. Always."

He looked up at me threw tears and sniffled. "I love you too." he whispered. I smiled at him.

"Can we go to bed please? I'm tired and really just want to be with you right now." he said. I nodded.

We both got ready for bed and crawled in next to each other. Josh brought me as close to his chest as possible. "I'm going to make it up to you for my shitty behaviour." he said gently kissing my hair.

A/N ~ ayyyeeee its 2:30am and I strangely want chicken wings?¿ annnywayy love you! Bye❤
~Squish