All I can see is my death
All I can feel is my anxiety's breath
Getting harder and collapsing my lungs
I wish love didn't sting so hard to be stung
Something I wanted, something I tried
Now people will talk as I have died
Urges deep in my arms, in my neck
My mind, my life, are all such a mess
And from this I wouldn't expect anything less
So go ahead, hurt me and kill me
Fill me and spill me
Lead me on as the others do,
Then lie as if you were telling the truth
All I needed was one bad night,
And you've given me my sight
To see ahead for my flight
To fly
Into the deathly night sky
The darkly lit mind of mine
Relapsed, heart collapsed
Left inside to die and collapse
Late at night, I fall to the ground
And I won't even make a sound
Bleeding out and bleeding away
For death to grab my hand and take me astray
As I am lost, I have lost
Death is loves beautiful cost
So as I love, I will fall
And lose it all
Give my all, just to retreive nothing in return
So as I see other kids committing suicide, now it's my turn
To hurt myself, to try
To kill myself and fly
I can feel it deep in my heart
Under my chest and fallen apart
I can feel the heavy feeling saddened within
The falling feeling maddened under my skin
What I feel, the only thing I can see or think
As I drain out and clean my sink
One thing on my mind, it's the only thing I can feel
It's for death to open up and let me in the gates of Hell
As my reality is real, and it's nothing I can tell.
4/9/17
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ShaneM Original Poetry Collection
PoetryTW: Dark and graphic emotions/thoughts. I am updating this collection of poetry as I have kind of left it alone for a long time. I started this in 2017, and while I have written many poems over the years, I have also stopped writing for a long time...