ShaneM Original Poetry Collection

Death

All I can see is my death

All I can feel is my anxiety's breath

Getting harder and collapsing my lungs

I wish love didn't sting so hard to be stung

Something I wanted, something I tried

Now people will talk as I have died

Urges deep in my arms, in my neck

My mind, my life, are all such a mess

And from this I wouldn't expect anything less

So go ahead, hurt me and kill me

Fill me and spill me

Lead me on as the others do,

Then lie as if you were telling the truth

All I needed was one bad night,

And you've given me my sight

To see ahead for my flight

To fly

Into the deathly night sky

The darkly lit mind of mine

Relapsed, heart collapsed

Left inside to die and collapse

Late at night, I fall to the ground

And I won't even make a sound

Bleeding out and bleeding away

For death to grab my hand and take me astray

As I am lost, I have lost

Death is loves beautiful cost

So as I love, I will fall

And lose it all

Give my all, just to retreive nothing in return

So as I see other kids committing suicide, now it's my turn

To hurt myself, to try

To kill myself and fly

I can feel it deep in my heart

Under my chest and fallen apart

I can feel the heavy feeling saddened within

The falling feeling maddened under my skin

What I feel, the only thing I can see or think

As I drain out and clean my sink

One thing on my mind, it's the only thing I can feel

It's for death to open up and let me in the gates of Hell

As my reality is real, and it's nothing I can tell.

4/9/17