It's a pain held inside
Pain that I hide
Out of nowhere it comes
I break and I succumb
It's a Hell, it's why I need help
It's buried deep inside when I yell
Please help, I'm falling
Death's hands for I'm calling
I bottle it up and hide it within
Terrible things hidden under my skin
Blood bleeds, scars seal
They fade but they're still real
Their presence I can still feel.
I hold it inside, it's held deep
In the broken heart I keep
Harder and harder to breathe
Thriving through hate, I seethe
Out is where it needs to go
The pain needs to flow
Not by red, nor words
The terrifying terrible herds
Herds of tears and pain
Screaming and crying, closer to regaining sane
I hold it in, I hide it all
The pain is held in every fall
And perhaps I never hit the bottom
I'm still on my way
And I'm not sure if I want to stay
Please, somebody help me
I'm still falling and I'm free
Happy and sad mixed
Impossible to be fixed
All I can think, all I can see
Is one final vision to be free
I lay back, fallen
On the ground, it pours all in
Fade in and out for a life I doubt
To sleep for the promise I keep,
I broke.
It's a pain held inside,
Where my soul died
If you bottle and bury
Keep a deep burden to carry
If you hide your stress
And lock it away,
Prepare to lose your sanity
And be terrified of terrible things
A ticking timebomb of paranoia
I fall into paranoia
So as I fade in and out
Helpess, I am weak
I seek
A way out
And the only one that is found
Is filled with doubt.
3/20/17
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ShaneM Original Poetry Collection
PoezieTW: Dark and graphic emotions/thoughts. I am updating this collection of poetry as I have kind of left it alone for a long time. I started this in 2017, and while I have written many poems over the years, I have also stopped writing for a long time...
