ShaneM Original Poetry Collection

Everyone Else

So much held inside,

I die inside

Hiding what I love,

And what I lie

If only you could be mine

I would be fine

Hurting and left alone

Always on my own

Broken and dead

It's all in my head

Anxiety and insecurity

Paranoid with no maturity

Scared of everyone and everything

Scared because I hold in everything

It all hurts too much,

So much

Hurts the worst when it's all too much

It's okay though,

I'm used to being alone

Used to breaking down

When there is nobody around

Something is wrong with I

Silence my every cry

So I hold it in,

Nobody can see within

Blinded to how I feel,

I push away to feel unreal

Isolate myself and I desolate no one else

Hatred only for myself

I need help

Can't do this on my own

I need help

Can't stand being alone

Yet nobody is here,

You say you are, but you don't hear

Nowhere to be found

It's okay though, I'm sure you're busy all around

Just like everyone else

But unlike everyone else

I'm always here

I hold too much inside,

And it's killing and breaking me inside

I hide what I love,

What I lie

The truth and happiness; I cry

Someday it'll be okay

For everyone else,

But for myself?

I will be broken even more

A huge mess

And for everyone else

I wouldn't expect anything less.

5/28/17