Life

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Life isn't as it seems

It's not what everyone dreams

More or so our nightmares

Our heartfelt fears and our dares

Unstable mind

In my mind, dark twists and unhinged behind

Everything hurts

And so I desert

Leave alone what I assert

Left everything I care

Because nobody else is there

It hurts

To be left behind for so long

You leave everything wrong

It is not within me to contain

Not inside of me to restrain

I cannot deal with the stress

Nor can I the emotions, or anything less

Not strong, I am weak

Incapable of standing aloud to speak

Life is not what you want

It truly brings you down and it will haunt

Life kills and spills the unknown

And turns it all into being alone

Left my side, everyone else

Only left to defend myself

But how can I?

Can't feel, is this real?

My heart to steal, no way to heal

Wasted soul and life left stranded

Life left me empty handed

Tried to build my own way

I tried to fill and stray away

But only did life and everyone else

Deprive me of my worth for my own self

Weak and pitiful

Might as well be beautiful

A dark death destined to fly

My light's burned out, I have no tears to cry

Yet still they come, still they fall

Because what I feel is it all

That, along with nothing

I must feel something

Only that of emptiness and alone

I tried,

But life isn't as it seems

When you have a dream

It is only that to catch in your sleep

For me?

Everyone else stole from me

Not my dreams, but my screams

Caused my pain

And I kept it sane

All until I fell apart,

And went insane.

5/8/17

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