A Feeling Of Committing

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Feeling so close to committing

How I truly feel I'm admitting

It feels so deep in my heart

Making it so easy to give and fall apart

Remembering my amazingly horrible past

Fighting so hard to make everything last

But it seems everything fades

Urging with countless blades

There's a war inside of my mind

Because the past I can't leave behind

So painfully attaching

The demons in my soul keep scratching

But forever in me they will stay

Leaving a feeling of committing every single day

Is life worth living?

I have nothing worth giving

Images of suicide

Not even I know what's happening inside

Everyday I get close to ending it

Trying to remember to forget

So weak and I'm breaking

The amazing smile I'm faking

My soul is decaying

With the trust I'm betraying

Into this life I'm submitting

All I live with is a feeling of committing

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