ShaneM Original Poetry Collection

Alone

Completely and utterly alone

I simply can't make it on my own

Surrounded by nothing,

Wishing to feel something

Ignored, nobody talks

Away from me everybody walks

It seems as if I am found repulsive,

Maybe I'm just annoyingly impulsive

I have many friends, but it feels as if I have none

Wishing to be appreciated and supported just by one.

I feel completely alone,

Sad and depressed, into a dark despair hole I am thrown

Sadness clouds over and rains down,

Tears fall and blood spins around

Choke on my own tears, trying to hold everything in

But the slightest miss of touch, and my head starts to spin

I am okay with myself, I am strong and fine

But then again, I'm weak and damaged, I no longer shine

I don't need to work on myself, but then I do

It's something in me that I know isn't true

But what I really yearn for and can't help but to miss

Is a lovely affection, for my wounds to kiss

First, the love had left and I felt guilt and betray

Now it seems the friends are leaving and lie to portray

Losing all of my support, I've given up on others

It's a deeply darkness that kills to smother

No more support, I'm close to giving up on myself

Close to giving up on my own stealth

No longer will I ask or try

I will sit alone and slowly die

Because I am completely alone,

Solely on my own

Nobody wants, nobody asks

Done hiding behind my masks

If I am to be alone, so be it

If nobody can or will help, then I'll do it myself

Because I have cut myself off from every one and thing

I will fight and die alone with my own broken wing.

12/6/16