Completely and utterly alone
I simply can't make it on my own
Surrounded by nothing,
Wishing to feel something
Ignored, nobody talks
Away from me everybody walks
It seems as if I am found repulsive,
Maybe I'm just annoyingly impulsive
I have many friends, but it feels as if I have none
Wishing to be appreciated and supported just by one.
I feel completely alone,
Sad and depressed, into a dark despair hole I am thrown
Sadness clouds over and rains down,
Tears fall and blood spins around
Choke on my own tears, trying to hold everything in
But the slightest miss of touch, and my head starts to spin
I am okay with myself, I am strong and fine
But then again, I'm weak and damaged, I no longer shine
I don't need to work on myself, but then I do
It's something in me that I know isn't true
But what I really yearn for and can't help but to miss
Is a lovely affection, for my wounds to kiss
First, the love had left and I felt guilt and betray
Now it seems the friends are leaving and lie to portray
Losing all of my support, I've given up on others
It's a deeply darkness that kills to smother
No more support, I'm close to giving up on myself
Close to giving up on my own stealth
No longer will I ask or try
I will sit alone and slowly die
Because I am completely alone,
Solely on my own
Nobody wants, nobody asks
Done hiding behind my masks
If I am to be alone, so be it
If nobody can or will help, then I'll do it myself
Because I have cut myself off from every one and thing
I will fight and die alone with my own broken wing.
12/6/16
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ShaneM Original Poetry Collection
PoetryTW: Dark and graphic emotions/thoughts. I am updating this collection of poetry as I have kind of left it alone for a long time. I started this in 2017, and while I have written many poems over the years, I have also stopped writing for a long time...