사랑 참 어렵다 (Love is hard)

Chapter Sixteen.

[ Dohee pov ]

We stood like this for what seemed like forever. The silence of the night, taking us each deeper, into our own thoughts. I softly pat his back as I pull away from him. His hands slipping away from my body, his head still bent low so that we wouldn't make eye contact.

"Hey" I softly whispered at him.

He didn't move an inch before finally moving back to look over at the night view.

"Kris" I said softly

"Look Dohee" he quickly responds "I dont know what it is that has me locked on you. Sometimes when I look at Kai, I can see myself but looking at you" he runs his hands through his hair and sighs softly "its crazy because this is not the kinda person I am. I wouldnt just fall over a girl" he looks at me over his shoulder and just shakes his head turning it back.

"Hey, I'm the same with you, it's not like I fall for every guy that I....." pausing for a sec, I realised that I never told Kris that there was a spark that I held for him...he on the other hand showed it through his actions prior...
He whips his head, looking at me. A small smile appearing on his face.

"I didn't mean it l-l.." flustered and embarassed, I cover my mouth with the back of my hand, shaking my head. I feel my face getting warm and I quickly glance at Kris.

Wrong move.

His face, now has a wide grin on it. He takes a step towards me which makes me take one back, falling back onto the chair that was behind me.

"You like me." He says smiling as he places one hand down on the arm of the chair while his tall body leaned over me. His eyes piercing into my skull because there was no way in heck, I was gonna look up at him again!

"Dohee" he softly says.

I move my hands away from my face and slowly but cautiously look up at him.

"What?" I say a bit embarassed. My view briefly stopping at his small round lips. Shaking my head I look up at his face, his dark brown eyes looking into mine. Captivating and pulling me into a trance.

They remind me of his....

Blinking as if being released from his spell, I place my hand on his chest lightly, giving him a gentle push.

"Friends, remember?" I said, avoiding his eyes.

I hear him sigh as he moves and nods his head "yeah friends." He walks over to the other chair and takes a seat.

We sit in awkward silence, I quickly look over at him and he seems calm and composed. Me on the other hand, my brain is wracking up weird thoughts and painful memories.

Why did I think of him? Kris is nothing like him...

What's wrong with me? Why can't I get over him?

"By any chance....is what Rap Monster said back then, at the lake, is it true?" He says looking over at me.

Snapping me out of my dangerous thoughts, I look over at Kris and nod my head as I wrap my arms around my body. Its weird, having someone else know something like this besides Rap Monster.

It's strange.

I look over at him and he just nods, pulling us back into the dead silence of the night. I sigh softly to myself as my body shivers.

"Shall we head back inside? It's  getting cold" Kris says as he gets up holding out his hand towards me. I look at his face then down at his hand, reaching out and grabbing it.

"Yeah, that sounds good" I say as he pulls me up...close to him. I feel my heart skip a beat as he pulled me, the feel of him so close to me. I mean we were close before when we hugged, but this time, he was looking ay me and I was looking at him.